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Christmas is over.

Thank goodness for Christmas being over. This season has brought nothing but stress and fights, but it is over guys! Now, we get to look forward to a new year! 2016 was a pretty crappy year, but I have a feeling that 2017 will be a whole lot better! Even with the year not being the best, I have to look back on some great things that did happen, then I will write a short goal for 2017. I do plan on doing a New Years resolution post, but that will be on Sunday!!!

In 2016, We started out strong here on Impromtdude. In March, we were able to buy our first domain. That is right, we went from Impromtmaster.wordpress.com to Impromtdude.com. It was a small but amazing step to take. This was followed by getting my first hoodie and T-shirt. We also were able to raise our stats, by having one of post do super amazing, followed by a few others. Though we did amazing, we did fall short in a few other places.

We were giving a reward for continuously posting, but then one day lost all of that for us. I was too late one night, which ended that streak. This was the first time in almost a year that I didn’t post. Since then, I have failed to post daily. Its just hard to live life and do great things, stuff that I will write about, and post a blog every night. On top of all of this, I was starting to feel like this was more of a chore than a passion. This is when I realized that I was posting for stats, not for readers enjoyment. This is when I took a little time off. I have been off and on since then. But that is no problem, we will get back. Sometimes you just need a break. On other news, we are going to fall short of 100 likes on Facebook, which is pretty upsetting. This is something that I am going to change soon, but for now we will watch as I have failed to reach that number…

Now, we will talk about 2017.

Nothing could be as bad as 2016. You might have had a good year, but no one else did. 2016 was the year that took a huge amount of celebrities, two of my cars, my sanity and much more. That is why I am excited to get this next year started. With the new year, there will be a new goal for Impromtdude. This is something that I want to get back to and will attempt to do so in the next 365 days.

In 2017, I would love to build off of what we started. We were able to get apparel last year, I want to build on that. This will include a huge amount of items such as; Hoodies, T-shirts, hats, caps, sweat pants and/or socks. Now, not all the items will be available, but I hope to have something more for my dedicated fans. To build my fan base I will be making business cards/magnets. This will help my blog grow by giving me an easy way to promote myself when in public. But there is more! In 2017, I will be stepping out more and connecting with other writers. I plan on helping some people with their writing, writing with other people, having people guess blog, and many other amazing things. You will be seeing a lot of new faces. This is the best way to stay fresh; keep your blog enticing, by adding new opinions and faces. 

There will be more to come, but for now this is it. I will go into more detail Sunday, but know that 2017 will be the year that will make or break this blog. I really hope you will take this ride with me, because I can’t do this without you guys.

Also, I got a new laptop, so that is exciting!!! And I am getting glasses once this year ends. I can’t see crap, anymore. I finally know it’s time to get glasses.

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What is really hurting me is that people are hurting. This is the season for everyone to come together and feel loved. Christmas is about getting together with your loved ones and enjoying each others company as you celebrate. It doesn’t matter your beliefs, it doesn’t matter about money, all that matters is that you are together. Christmas is suppose to be about love, so why is everyone having such a rough time? Why do I see more depression and broken hearts, more death and a lot more negativity? Is it my set of friends or is everyone having a horrible season of holidays? Either way, what can we do?

I am a huge Facebook user, and each day I sign in and spend hours looking through post. I like to keep up with old friends, that I don’t usually talk to. I also like to share in special memories of others, such as babies, new cars, and much more. One of the biggest things I love to read are praises or small things that make peoples lives awesome. Recently, I found out that a close friend went on a prayer walk, one to get himself closer to God. He had a great time and got a lot from it. These little things make me so happy, then we also have those post about a girl that can’t take life anymore, these post are what get me upset.

Where, in life, do we find ourselves in so much pain that we have nothing to live for? I remember laughing and having a great time, as a child. Yet, somewhere we were giving a curse of depression? When did life get so hard? I’m not sure, but it is a huge problem.

We are talking about MILLIONS of people that suffer from depression. These are people that feel unwanted, abused, torn, worn, and alone. At one time, these people were happy, but something happened to where they fell and hit rock bottom. One of the main reasons is death. Everyone has lost someone due to death, it is the cycle of life, but that doesn’t mean it is easy. A death in the family can tear apart the most perfect relationships. A death as a mother can leave children broken for life, making it hard for them to even get through the day. Other reasons for depression can be; Failed classes, failed dreams, breakups, being ignored, loss of friends, money problems, and bullying. The list can go on for hours, but that isn’t the point. The point is; we have the chance to change this, by simply being there for them during the hard times!

I don’t want to see anyone hurting, especially during the holiday seasons. We are meant to be happy individuals, so what can we do? The answer is simple; we need to show them that they are loved. This doesn’t have to be a big gesture, it can as simple as texting them and telling them you love them, or inviting them over to your house for dinner. The smallest gestures can help tremendously. People just want to be wanted. They want to know that you are thinking about them. This is why Bart and I are sending out love!

I want to call this “Love for Christmas; A Better Gift.” This is where I will try to find those who are hurting and I will let them know that I am thinking about them! Bart (My Christmas Stuffed Animal) will write everyone (in pain) a small note, informing that person that they aren’t alone. I don’t know if this will help, but I have to do something. I think everyone of you guys should do the same. Write a small note to those you love, telling them that you are thinking of them, praying for them, or that you love them. It doesn’t have to be a long message, but I promise it will mean the world to those in pain. This Christmas, we need to let everyone know that we are together, as one, to celebrate. Will you do it?

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    I have sadly taken another step into depression. I find myself in this boat, it feels like the boat is sinking. With that being said, I would like to take tonight off. I was going to do some amazing post, but I just don’t feel like myself, right now. I want to bring you guys to my old post from July 2015, that also happens to be another battle I had with depression. I hope you aren’t mad.:(

Have you ever felt alone? Not the type of alone that you feel when you are in a house by yourself, no I am talking about the alone that hurts. The alone that I am speaking of is the kind that even in a crowded room you feel your the only living human. You can fight this as much as you possibly can, but at the end of the day the feeling is still as strong as the beginning. You can’t shake this feeling for the life of you, it’s a feeling that is impossible to get rid of, it is a part of depression, its been the death of really great people, and I am no different!
If i’m being fully honest, I have been struggling a lot lately with feeling alone and worthless, its like I take fifteen steps forward to the point of feeling good about myself, to end up taking thirty steps back to find myself hurting from something I thought I had under control. Well the same thing that I conquered in the past, happens to be the same thing that is holding my head under water. I have been losing the battle lately with all my depression, a battle that I thought I had in the bag.
See when you get comfortable with who you are, something has to happen to try to break your spirit. It will be something that you never thought that would make you hurt, but it is the problem, it always is. My problem happens to be my job, and my boss. They both make me want to jump off a bridge to escape how they make me feel. One stresses me to do everything in my power to get everything done as fast as possible to look good, even if the price is my well being. The other is the one that makes me feel like I’m not doing a good enough job, with his smart remarks about what I do, and the way that he treats other employees.
I have worked at my job for two years, and one year with the man that puts a lot of stress on me. He is my general manager and I can just say that he can be a prick. He will go behind me and try to correct everything that I do, even with me doing everything in my power to get it done. Then there are those times where he will yell at me for not getting one thing out of a hundred done. But then again when one of my coworkers do only one of the hundred things, he praises them with candy and love. Now I don’t want that , I just want him to stop favoring the laziest people and show his hardest workers the appreciation, they deserve it more.
I don’t even like going into work anymore, where I use to strive to get called in on my day off, and it’s all because of the amount of stress that is put on me. This stress that I can’t let go of, is literally killing me more and more each day. I have become a depressed little wreck, someone that use to love their life, has become someone that doesn’t care what happens next. With this becoming a problem, I started to think of the things that I could do to become happy.
one- talking to my wife- She is such a good listener and is very positive and supportive. She supports all of my decisions even if she questions my motives. I love her for that she is amazing.
two- Installing TalkLife again- Talklife is a free application that is available on everything except window phones. The point of this application is to help those who are depressed. I have been a part of the community for almost four years, but I deleted it to get a few games on my phone. But as I saw all of my hard work to keep myself happy disappear, I decided that it was time to cry out for help once again. I originally downloaded this application to help people, but I noticed quickly, that I needed the help I was giving out. Now I am back, and it is easier to conquer the heart-wrenching feelings that this amount of stress brings onto me.
If you feel like you are hopeless in your situation, know that you aren’t. If you feel alone in your life, know that you aren’t. There are people there in your life that are feeling the same, so don’t let your pride get in the way of getting help. Someone will help you if you ask, you just have to ask!!!! I am here to help you!

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   On Tuesday, I took a few seconds to share my opinion on my writing career. It was nice to share some heart-to-heart ideas with you guys. I have learned a lot over the past couple years, things that I will use to further my life. But today, I will be sharing my opinion on something more serious. My opinion on this topic is very serious.
    Big Bang Theory is almost over…..I am on the eighth season, the last one on DVD, and we are almost done with it. What happens when this train is over? What will I do with my time? I can’t just move on, I can’t act like I’m not missing something. The big bang theory has been a big part of my last few months, I go to work, I come home, I drink some soda and watch another episode. But now I am almost done with the season. I have thought about watching another show, such as my wife, but Greys Anatomy isn’t doing it. I do have plan on going back and watching the classic “The Flash” series, but it’s only one season, I won’t be distracted long.
    The Walking Dead comics are doing amazing, they are long and very interesting. I am contrasting them to the show, and so far they are similar in a lot of different ways. I will be covering that in a future blog, but for now, I want to continue my rant about The Big Bang Theory by talking about how it might end in the next year, possibly after season 10.
     The director said that he will try to keep it going, but he didn’t promise anything. This means that my life might come to an end soon. I have already watched 1-8 seasons of TBBT, which means that I only have 2 seasons left. I hope that something amazing comes along and catches my attention, if not we will probably see a crazy flesh eating Zombie, named Blake, plaguing the streets of Springfield!
P.s.
Not a store in town sell a Flash Pop doll! Like what crazy town do I live in. The flash is the damn bomb!

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