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Welcome back! It has been so dang long and I do apologize for that. It has been the roughest year of my young life, and that has caused me to not want to write. But nonetheless, we are back in action. I won’t be posting nearly as much as I use to, but know that you will be getting a blog 4 out of 7 days. This is solely because posting 7 days a week is just too draining and I don’t want to find myself hating this again. Not that I could ever hate you, guys. Wink, wink! Also, with the change of the schedule, I will also be giving this blog some direction. This will help you guys know what is going on at all times and will finally give this blog a name. For most of this blogs existence, I have posted whatever comes to mind, which can be hard to pull in outsiders, since people only read what they think will affect them. In this “Revival” of “Impromtdude” We will be leaning more towards encouragement. Meaning 2 of the 4 post will be uplifting messages to help you guys get through the day, then the other 2 days will be reviews, promotions, writing prompts, thoughts, lessons, or anything else I can think of. I really feel that will bring life back into this keyboard, and will give you guys encouragement to face your demons. I have to say that I am glad to be back and I hope you enjoy the upcoming projects, as I am excited to share my thoughts and talents with you guys. Thank you for reading!

Don’t let toxic people ruin your shine.

When I was going up, I lived with my mom. At 7 years old, you are looking to your parents for the right and wrongs. You are over being that toddler that is running around the house, and you aren’t quite the man that is taking girls out. You are right in the middle. These are the times that you really need a strong backbone to know what is wrong and right and you need that person to push you in the right direction. She wasn’t this, though. She taught me, at such a young age, that hate is good and that you must judge everyone on their actions. Most of her lessons were, of course, about hating my dad, as she taught me that he wasn’t around because he was a bad father, not because she had a restraining order on him. She also taught me that it was okay to steal, lie and cheat. This led me to lying to people, cheating in class, and stealing (to the point of being banned from a gas station at 8 years old!) This went on for many years. When I grew up, I ended up being like her in many ways. I would blame others when I didn’t get my way, I lied to girls to get what I wanted, and I got in trouble for stealing; all things that she taught me because she was a toxic person.

This was all said to tell you that you don’t need or want toxic people in your life. They will tear you down and only will use you for their pleasure. They don’t care about you or how you feel; they only want what they can get. If you stop giving it to them, then they will leave you and treat you like they treat everyone else. You will become nobody in their eyes, because they won’t be able to use you as a puppet.

Toxic people come in many forms; boyfriends, girlfriends, best friends, bosses, coworkers, and most importantly family. Anyone in your life can be toxic. Toxic people just want everyone to be as miserable as they are. Boyfriends will use words to cut down their girlfriends (and vice versa,) usually telling the girl that she is ugly, fat or stupid. This is usually in attempt to make her feel so low about her own self that she would never think about leaving him. Your coworkers can be toxic by the way they talk to you or about others. Getting that promotion is their only goal, and they will do anything to get it, even putting you through the ringer. They also take time and gossip about your other workers, mainly to make themselves look better, which can make the workplace dangerous and full or drama, which was their goal all along. Drama is soul food for these people. But one type of toxic person, one that we didn’t think should be on this list, is your family. Family is supposed to be there in thick and thin. They are supposed to support your feelings, your dreams and also should see your side of the story. They should understand that you aren’t always going to like someone or agree with everyone. They should show you the love that you always gave them. This isn’t always the case, though. Some families are full of drama seeking  hateful judgers that want everyone to hear them, but never want to listen. Such as my mom, they want everyone to see their side and only their side. They will do everything in their power to convince others that you are wrong and that they are right. Most families will break apart because of the toxicity feelings.

What should we do about toxic people? CUT THEM OFF. Don’t let your boyfriend talk to you like he does, remove yourself from conversations will negative people, and if you need to, cut your family off. You have a life to live, so don’t let others bring you down. Life is too stressful to allow others to fill you will negative thoughts and feelings, so cut them off. You will never change their mind; you will never do them justice. Every word that you speak will go in one ear and out the other, so stop wasting your breath. Get a knife and cut the ties, because you will be happier that way! I saw a big change when I cut my mom off. She wanted to blame my dad for my bad childhood and wanted to tell me that it was his fault, but I knew the truth. The truth was that she was just hateful and wanted to avoid being the blame, so she pushed it on someone else. I thought that I could pull her up and show her that no one was to blame fully, but I saw quickly that she was pulling me into negativity, and if I didn’t release her hand then I would become the same type of person. It won’t work! You put yourself at risk anytime you try to pull these people out of their toxicity! But it is so easy to pull you down.

I have seen so many toxic people in my life, but that is also why I don’t talk to that many people. I don’t dance with snakes and I don’t drink with fools. Being around toxic people is as dangerous as dancing in the middle of a freeway, you will eventually be flattened! Don’t let that happen, though! Get up, cut those people off, and live your most positive life. It will be hard to cut these people off, especially at the family level, but you need to do it.  Stop letting them ruin your most happy days, take them back already!

Thank you for all your support. This is my first time writing a blog in almost a year and dang did it feel so good. I miss this feeling. I will have something up soon to tell you guys what will be posted and when. I have a few big projects coming in the next few weeks that I will need your help on, ill post more details soon. Thank you for the support and I love you.

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My self doubt story.

When I was little, I was made fun of everyday. I wasn’t poor or anything, but everyone around me seem to make fun of me as I was. I remember a few times that I was broken because of these comments, so today (in an attempt to share awareness) I want to talk about one event that led to me being full of self doubt.

When I was about 7, my house burnt down. That day, I wanted to stay home but my mom told me that I wasn’t allowed to. I didn’t feel good,  but it wasn’t a stomach ache, it was more of a heart ache. I didn’t know what was going on, but my mother pushed me out the door. I was in art class, later that day and my hands started to shake for no reason. My friends were worried for me, but I told them that I was fine then went back to painting my picture. I remember that day all to clearly. I was at recess when a crowd of kids ran to the slide. I was such a follower, so I followed them and asked what was going on. They all pointed to the sky, where a cloud of smoke hovered over the town. The excitement was quickly put out and we went back to playing four-square. Later that hour, I was called into the principals office. I knew I wasn’t in trouble, but they still wanted to see me. When I walked through the doors, my mother was sitting there fully covered in ashes. Her face was a dark grey and she smelt like smoke. They had me sit down and told me that our house had burnt down. I didn’t fully understand what that meant, but I could tell it wasn’t good. I didn’t know what to do, but my mom pulled me close and hugged me. I pulled away and told her that she smelt like smoke. The room irrupted in a giggle. During a bathroom break that day, we were all standing in line. The kids were all talking about the smoke cloud, that is when I told them that it was my house that burnt down. They all laughed and began to mock me “You don’t even have a house” “Stop lying, you don’t have a house like you don’t have any friends.” The teacher came up to me in line, after talking to the principal and gave me a hug, followed by saying that she was very sorry about my house. The kids were in shock, as I was telling the truth, and surrounded me. They acted like the words said previously were never said, but deep down it was still killing me, because it was clear that it was all true.

They were probably right, I didn’t have any friends. No one liked me because I was different, because I didn’t have the money like everyone else. My family was just broken apart, my mother was trying to figure everything out. Then our house burnt down, I was literally all alone in the hardest days of my life, the only thing I had was my messed up life and the words that were said that day. Those small words have haunted me through my life and have caused me to think low about myself. I usually find myself mot saying how I feel, because I am scared of what people will say. I don’t want to be hurt like that day, again. That day also took away all my self confidence, which I still lack to this day especially when it comes to sharing any of my own work.

Bullying will ruin a life, even if the bullying isn’t severe. That is why its important to stand for those who can’t stand for themselves. If you see someone getting bullied, don’t walk the other way. No! Save them. Even if it is just telling the person to leave them alone, you don’t know what will save that persons life. I am not only talking about his/her actual life, I am also talking about how they feel about themselves for the rest of their lives. Don’t be a part of the problem, instead be the light into the dark world. Be different, you could help make someone great.

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Top 5 T.V. shows I am watching, right now.

Ariel and I have been watching  a lot of tv, lately. This includes a few new shows that we will talk about today. I will list a few T.V. shows that I watch when I am bored, then I will also talk about my most favorite show that I am addicted to!

  5. Scream– This was a joke when we first started watching it. It was something that I was wanting to torture Ariel with, but instantly it became a hit. We still have a love/hate relationship with the show, but we are falling more in love with the show, daily.

  4. Beauty and the Beast– I am not a fan of these types of shows, nor will I ever be, but this show is something else. I find the suspense to be just right. I would hate to always have someone after me, which is what this guy has. I wouldn’t say I love the show, but it is a good time killer!

  3. Big Bang Theory- Season 9 was just released on DVD, and I was one of the first to buy it. Since I bought the set, I have only watched a few episodes. I don’t want to finish this season too fast, so  I will continue to the next. Just know that this show will always be my favorite!

  2. Z Nation– I just stumbled across this gem and I love it. It is like The Walking Dead meets Syfy. I thought I would hate this show, but if you go in not comparing to The Walking Dead, then you will be fine. I didn’t go in thinking about The Walking Dead, so I found a strange love for this show. Murphy is a funny smartass, Doc is funny as hell, Addy is sexy and 10k is just overall amazing. I cant wait to watch more!

  1. The Walking Dead– Season 6 left everyone pissed, expect for me. The season finale was a great way to end the finale. Others might disagree, but think about it; Even if you aren’t a huge fan, you want to know who Negan killed, ultimately gluing you to AMC’s hands. They own you! I don’t know about you, but I am ready to get this hype train back on track! GO NEGAN! 

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What are some of your favorite shows? Why are they your favorite? Would you recommend them to me? Tell me below. I think I might come back and update this list in the future, but for now, I really hope you like this list! Love you!

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Yesterday, I was giving the opportunity to open a few doors for a friend. I was approached by him, a few months ago, after I promoted a local artist. He asked me if I could do a write-up for him, also, and I gladly said yes, as promoting local artists happens to be very fun. There were a few hold ups during this process, as Kastle refused to send me the email back (LOL), but he finally got the email sent. As I read over the questions he answered, I knew instantly, this was going to be a very fun post to write. This man is great and has a very big heart for the Lord, making it easy to sell him to people. I got the post put up yesterday, but I would like to share, with you guys, his testimony and the interview!. This is a great way for you guys to fall in love with him all over again!
Don’t forget to Check out Kastle Li’s Facebook and his Labels page!
(Please take a look at the post, before clicking any links!)

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Kastle’s Testimony!
      My story is not like not so much like every professing Christian or believer of Christ, in a sense it carries the same message as some.
      I had parents; I had a mother and father but not so much for we didn’t bond as a family should, I didn’t feel that love til after I was already older and able to make my own decisions and be my own adult.

      I didn’t struggle with drugs or alcoholism, have I tried them before? Yes. Do I regret them now that I look back on it? Yes. But my past doesn’t conflict my future because my future lies within God.

      However, I did struggle with acceptance, and fitting in and wanting to belong amongst my peers, I lack identity and because of that I wore many masks to see which was fitting.

      I gangbanged, I attempted to sell drugs, I wanted money and woman, it never filled any missing spots in my life.

      I use to want to play pro basketball and football, even be a professional wrestler, even went as far as going to the wrestling schools, but in the end none of that interested me at all.

      I got into the habit of poetry as an outlet to escape the my environments growing up and even isolated myself from my peers in school, because I didn’t fit in, I was suicidal, bullied on a regular, got into fights at school and got kicked out number of occasions, show little to no respect for authority to the point, the school principle said himself that the direction I was heading, I wasn’t going anywhere and I believed him, grades slipping, no friends really, going nowhere in life.
     
      I got into the hip hop culture with no knowledge or experience in at all, the similarities in it is that it carried an poetry feel to me, substance, which has always been the fabric of hip hop since day one.

      So I got into rapping, and 2 years out of high school, I get set to drop my debut album “Still Searching” in 06’ and I run into an friend of mine, who was saved at that time and talked to me about God, at first I wasn’t buying it for the simple fact that, I’ve been around it as a kid and I didn’t believe in God for I had hatred towards him, I literally was raging war with God, I was an atheist and ok with it because how can an almighty God allow so much in this world?
     
      I can tell you now is because it’s of free will, free to make your decisions, but not free from the consequences of your decisions weather good or bad, there’s consequences in any and everything In life.

      I went to church with him one day, with my thoughts and questions to myself, spoke to no one, not even introduce myself to anyone, a quick in and out what was my plan was, but no.

     A youth pastor approached during worship, and asked to pray for me and I accepted, and as he was praying I felt this calm, peace come over me, like an reassurance that everything is going to be fine, he told me what I was struggling with, what my hurt was and I was in shock for I said nothing to no one, and the message that was preached that night was about hopelessness, while story of the prodigal son was the illustration piece to the message, they did alter call, I was so ashamed and worried about people looking and judging me that I almost backed out, and I felt something inside of me telling, assuring me that everything is going to be ok and this is why I came here, so I as I approached the alter, I dropped to my knees and cried  like a new born baby, as ministers prayed over me, I felt that one thing that has always eluded me for years,  I finally felt loved. I finally felt like I fit in and I don’t have to be something that I’m not, I can be me, the true me that God called me to be and I received much freedom in finding my identity inside of finding him, for the more I searched and find him, the more I find myself.

      That’s my testimony, the short testimony for that matter, the truth of the matter, is this: there’s freedom in Christ Jesus and whatever you going through in this life, big or small that you can trust and rest assured that God is able.
Kastle Li

                                                                                              Interviewing Kastle:
Part 1: Early Childhood

1. When were you born? I Was born July 17th 1985, I remember my mom’s telling me the doctor said I was going to be smart, because for a baby, I had a big head LOL

2. Where were you raised? I grew up on the Southside of Chicago

4. Where was your favorite place to go as a kid? We had a restaurant called Sal’s pizzeria, man that was in 1995, I had my first gyro, and played street fighter turbo for the first time, every Saturday I was doing chores to gain enough money to beat E.Hunda LOL.

5. What school did you attend as a kid? I attended Yale Elementary and in 96 we moved to Springfield, Illinois.

7. Was it hard for you to make friends in school? Yes definitely, I was socially unequipped down to the tee; I didn’t share the same interests as everybody did.
  
8. Were you more of the “Nerd” or “Class clown”? Neither, I stayed to myself and I had really bad social anxiety that I would hope the teacher wouldn’t call on me.
  
9. What is your favorite childhood memory? I have to say the summertime, red light, green light, two hand touch football, and ICE CREAM!! LOL.

10. In school, what was your favorite subject? Science for the most part…Still is to this day exactly.

11. And what about you’re least favorite? History for the simple fact that everything we we’re brought up to believe are a lie, that’s why boys and girls I stress to you to do your own research.

12. Did you move a lot as a child? Did it have any effect on you? Yes, it was difficult for me, because it seemed like someone was continuously hitting the reset button on me, I felt like I was starting over all the time to the point I became numb to it.

Part 2: The later years

1. When and what was your first job? I worked at McDonalds for three years.

2. Did you attend college? What College? What major? Yes, I attended ITT-Tech and I major in applied computer science and graduated June of 06’

3. What was your first car? How much did it cost you? My first car was a 1986 Ford LTD Crown Victoria and I didn’t pay for it because it’s been in the family for a long time, gas guzzler Foreal bro!

4. As a graduate, what were your goals set after high school? I didn’t have any except be the biggest rapper and have all the money and girls, then I grew up LOL.

6. Who, in your life, impacted you the most between ages 5-25? My fathers to this day (R.I.P.) that man showed me first hand, the definition of working hard and bow down to no man, and take care of yours before you tell someone how to take care of theirs.

7. Is that mentor still mentoring you to this point in your life? Yes I must say, I still carry some traits of him in me.

8. Are you a participant of sports? Which ones? Did you play in high school? No. The most I ever did in school was wrestling and that was for one year and outside of school, I did some boxing nothing major, it’s just as a teen, I was getting jumped and the owner of a boxing gym wanted to show me a few pointers.

9. Are you big into writing? Yes and No, it depends.

10. When did you begin to write music? Junior year in high school, I was big into poetry and I lost one of my papers and someone who happens to rap found and gave it to me and said if this was a song it would be dope and it just took off from there. Prior to that I was always big on the culture of hip hop, just wasn’t a rapper because I always received negative feedback, but clearly all that changed.

Part 3: It’s all about inspiration

1. As an artist, who inspires you to keep following your dream? Underdogs, people who was always told that they can’t because I was always told that I can’t, it something about that position to prove any and everybody wrong, it gets me all the time. 

2. How will your music impact teens of this generation? It will give them a message that no matter what you’re going through in life, Jesus is there, and he loves you and nothing you ever done is to big for you to not come to him. That’s what someone told me before I found God and that’s the message I want to send to everyone.

3. How will you inspire people beyond your beats and rhymes? Hopefully, it’ll inspire someone to look in the mirror and say “This life, I’m living needs to change and I want something better for myself.” Well I like to think anyway.

4. In this world there are a lot of inspirations, what do you think inspires kids these days?? Moving beyond the normal honestly, their visualists were visualists, you and me, we don’t want to hear it, we want to see, and that’s what my music does in my opinion, it gives you a visual prospective.
 
5. Is there more bad influence or good influence in this world today? A combination of both, good influence being overcrowded with bad influences.

6. Can you give me a few of your lyrics that would inspire someone to make it through the day? Whatever you got going on, you’ll make it, you’re made to endure, best believe you can take it, because you’re a fighter, a survivor, a natural born rider, light of this world, a walker lighter.
  
7. Is Jesus an outline throughout your previous album? Will this stay the same? Jesus has and will always be a huge part of my music.

8. What artist would you like to mirror throughout your career? Not sure, never really looked at an artist and be like, I want to do what they’re doing you know? Well that’s just me I must say.

9. Which parent would you say you’re learned more from? Explain? My father, he didn’t have an education, but you wouldn’t know that talking to him, he showed me that because you may lack something, doesn’t defect your worth at all. I mean this had no degree or diploma and still held down jobs on top of jobs, that’s why I hear dudes complain about not getting work, I’m not trying to hear that, it can be done if you really want it man.

10. What inspiration will you bring to the table? My drive, focus, and never say die attitude of course.

Part 4: Music so sick!

1. What genre are you under? Has this always been the same? CHH (Christian Hip Hop) no. I started out rapping like everybody else until I found God and as I was growing, my passion was growing as well, like there’s more to this life than even we may ever know.
What did you learn from past shows? Rocking the stage is very important, you can put out hot music all day every day, but if your live performance suck then that’s all she wrote.

4. How many shows have you been a part of? Which one was the most memorable? 6. I can’t pick for the reason that each one taught me to grow, but if I had to pick it would be my first one, I was so nervous that I was stuttering on stage and was so glad to finish that set.

5. What is your fondest memory, of the years you have put into your music? Completing my first mixtape in 2009, I was going through so much, lost a job, homelessness was approaching, I was suicidal and all I had to keep me going at that time was God, a bible, pen and pad and recording equipment and that was my therapy.

6. When and why did you begin to use music to express yourself? Music and poetry has always been one in the same to me, it has always been my place of escape, my way of expressing myself creatively in a sense.

7. What were your first songs about? Salvation at the cross and how we can grow from the inside out.

8. What were some of your first rhymes?  Man (Chuckles) they so wack that I voluntarily forgot them!

9. When you write a new song, is it lyrics before beat, or beat before lyrics? Has it ever changed? Man sometimes it depends the mood or state of mind that I’m in, sometimes, I hear a nice beat and write to it or sometimes something nice come to my mind and I write it out and I look for a beat to match it and write some more or edit what I wrote and build from there.

10. Are you a self-taught musician? If not, who taught you to work the magic? A combo of both, most of my friends are musicians, writers etc. and I learned a lot from them and mostly I listened to hip hop a lot, not just the songs, but the flow, the patterns and timing of it all. I was literally a sponge to the art.

11. What is your artist name? What is the story behind it? I go by Kastle Li, I was in worship one night and God gave me castle for that’s where the king dwells at, inside of me, so I switched the C to an K as a reminder of the “King.”

12. What is your signature? Something that people will know you by? My rawness and willingness to keep it real.
13. Where do you do most of your writing? Is there a certain place you have to be in? I have a home studio, but none the less, anywhere, park bench, at the table of a coffee shop, don’t matter as long as I got a notebook, bible or bible app on my phone and two pens and headphones.

14. How do you recover when a mistake is made during a show? Keep going; finish the set (hahaha)
15. Who do you look up to in the music industry? Why? Bizzle, the fact that he was who he was, when he came into the game to begin with and never changed, it was God over money then and it’s God over money now.

16. Do you play any instruments? Do you add these instruments to your songs? No, if I could it would be a piano.

17. I want to become an artist, but I’m nervous. How can you help me calm down? What advice? It’s good to be nervous, it builds you and reminds you that you’re human, but none the less, have fun for the most part, the crowd is like kids, they can smell fear (haha) I got kids that’s why I said that, but if you chilled and the crowd rocking with you, it’s all good bro.

18. Are you willing to teach those who want to become musicians? I can teach what I do know, but in actuality I’m a student myself, so first thing to learn is to stay humble and ready to learn.

19. Do you practice a lot? How do you practice? Yes. I practice in front of mirror when I know I’m performing live, but when I’m laying down vocals for a track, I practice rapping a lot before I lay down the track, so it comes out smooth.

20. How do you stay calm as the show begins? I remind myself why I’m doing this and there’s somebody coming that don’t knows God and would like to, and have fun for the most part.

21. What’s more nerve racking? The pre-show or during the show? During the show, you never know what could happen.

22. What is the best way to stay calm? Practice, plenty of rest and a balance meal.

23. How do you keep a balance in life as an artist? Being married with children, it becomes difficult at times, but at the end of day, family is the first ministry and everything else comes after, if my family good, then I’m golden bro.

24. In shows, how do you reach out to the crowd? Man I share my past experience, something people can relate to because we all struggle with something in this life, and start to pray for people.

25. If you’re giving any label, which one would you sign to? Doesn’t matter to me as long as they know where I stand with God and we’re on the same page.
26. Are you working on any projects right now? I’m working on my first debut album that’s slated to be released soon.
27. Do you own your own studio? What kind of equipment do you have? Yes. I have an home studio and I have an mxl 770 condenser mic, subwoofer speakers, and I use adobe audition as recording software.
28. How did you record your first album? I record from home, and I ship my files online through email to my label boss and he mix and master it in a studio and we go from there.

29. What are you plans in the music industry? To share the gospel and reach any and every one in need.
30. Where will you be in five years? I don’t know, hopefully a good place.

Part 5: Tell me more
1. Tell me about your upcoming album? It’s my first album, so it’s a bit personal and uplifting, but creative for the most part.

2. What is the title to the album? The story behind that title? The wait was worth it, I call it that because this album should have been out years ago, but a lot of setbacks and things in life derailed me numerous times, but at the same time from what I can take from it, is the growth I received from it all, how to be an better mc, rhymer all of that. So when it’s time for me to release this album, all the hard work, all the waiting, is going to be worth it (Smiles).

3. What can we expect from this album? Anyone that’s ever heard my previous work will definitely hear the growth in it and the new found drive as well. The energy in this is crazy.

4. Do you have any shows coming up? Where? Not as of yet, I put everything aside to focus on this album, but soon.

5. How long did it take you to write this album? A month.
6. Did you make all the beats to this album? How long did that take? Some yes and some no, I have a team of go to producers I kick it with, oh yeah shout out to jruso beats and Choo valentine, you guys are the MVP (haha).

9. Who will be featured on this album? Being that it’s my first, I didn’t want to overload it with features, but it’s light, I wanted everyone to hear mostly me and build from there.

10. How will this album be unique? Fast raps, new style beats, Rock underlines, anything?
11. How does the present state of the world affect your music? It doesn’t, it only proves my point on how we need to turn back to God.
Fun fillers
Xbox or Ps3? Xbox, 2k all day.
What did you want to be when you were 5? Superman.

Married? Or Dating? Married.

Can you freestyle? A little.

Dream vacation? Florida, with a nice house ocean view.

Favorite ice-cream? Oreo.

Coffee fan? Yes, hazelnut. 
Nerd or Jock? Neither.
Who will win the super bowl this year? Are you a sports fan? I still have high hopes for the bears man, my Chicago bulls please pray for them (haha)

If you are a fan of sports, what’s your favorite sport? Team? Bears, white sox, bulls, Blackhawks, Chicago everything.

Favorite movie? The outsiders, loved the book in high school, and really dug the movie.

If you were on the titanic, would you have saved rose? Yes, but we both would’ve been sharing the board, I wouldn’t be freezing.

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There I stood in the line, waiting for my lunch to fill my empty stomach. The loud mutters of teenage girl drama was echoing through the hallways, the teachers were trying to get it under control, but nothing was working. You cant stop a monkey from being a monkey, they will continuously throw poo, no matter how many times you tell them to stop. That is how this line felt, it felt that I was always in a zoo, waiting to get hit with poo from last nights banana fest.

There was always someone being picked on, or someone starting a new rumor, almost like it wasn’t a normal day if someone wasn’t saying something stupid. I always stood behind those who got picked on, yet when they paved the road themselves, at that point it was no longer my job. These girls were the type that would start a rumor, yet would cry if they were involved in it. I usually would try to wait until everyone had gotten their food to join the line, in order to stay out of the way of annoying people. But this day I was stuck in the middle of the drama, I was in between two of the biggest drama queens in the whole school, and they just happened to be mad at each other. I remember having to step out of the way a few times, because it began to get heated, and I wasn’t about to get hit for nothing. But then I thought of something I could do.

I walked over to my locker, which was right next to the line (thank god for freshmen’s) and grabbed my new testament bible, and I walked to the back of the line and began to read. The reading would cause me to go into a magical world, that would let me leave these baboons, and enter into a place that makes me feel safe, that was the kingdom of God.

I began to read my favorite note in the bible, Revelations. I was studying the seven churches that God talks about during that time, it was all for a sermon coming up. I decided this was the best time to do this, so I began to take notes on things I could use in my sermon. This is when my friend, Trevor, came up to me. He wanted to know what I was reading, but I haven’t told him I was a Christian, I was scared to tell him that I was reading the bible, because he wasn’t into that type of thing, and I wasn’t in the position to lose another friend!

That day I told him the truth, what was I going to say? I couldn’t tell him that I was reading a text book, we all had the same classes at the same time, with the same teachers. I had to man up and tell him, but I didn’t want to; I even thought about telling him that I found it on the ground. But I was taught at church about denying the Lord in public, I knew this was a huge moment in my faith, so I told him everything!

He looked at me like I was crazy and acted as if someone abducted his best friend and took him to a far away planet. This was true, God did take the old me and make me new, but it wasn’t as bad as he made it seem. The change that I went through was needed. I needed to let go of my old stupid ways, the same ways that made me a felon at a young age. I thought I was above everything, but that wasn’t true. I explained to him that everything was going to be the same, that he would still have the same Blake, just a better version. He seemed to buy that.

That whole attitude switched when we got our food and sat down with the rest of the crew. At first the table was acting normal, joking around about stupid things. But as the table began to run out of topics to make fun of, my friend blurted out that I was reading the bible moments before lunch. The table got really quiet. Some of the guys were okay with it, and shrugged their shoulders, so I began to think I was still in the same boat, but then one of the guys didn’t agree. I forgot what exactly what he said, but it was to the extent of “I don’t like this new Blake, you need to drop this.” I stayed quiet the rest of that lunch, I felt like I lost the rest of my friends; all from choosing to follow God, which I saw coming; I just didn’t want to believe it!

I saw our friendships thinning over the next part of the semester, which led to them finding new friends as they grew up. I found a little group of people, and made them my friends, but everyday I wanted to hang with them. I knew if I started to hang with them again, I would have falling from God, eventually leading me back to my old life, one that was killing me before.

I finally got close to them later on, when we were seniors but the time was over. I was going to a out-of-state seminar and they were going to a local college. Going to the different colleges would put distance in between our friendships. Some of my friends even moved away before they graduated. I still talk to them a bit these days. Something never changes; I am always left with a stale question: What if I kept my beliefs quiet and didn’t push it on them, would I still have them as my friends? Was this the fate of our friendships? Either way, I found out that day, not everyone will accept your beliefs, but if you are happy, do what you want!

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He has been there for me through the thick and the thin. He has done everything in his power to keep me safe, even when it put him in danger. He has spent hours budgeting the bills hoping at the end, he would be able to buy me anything that I needed or simply wanted. He has beat my ass and taught me the rights and wrongs in this world. He has taught me that one cannot take their life granted. He has impressed me with his dedication and with the amount of love in his heart. Even though he is injured, he still kills himself to please others around him. He is awesome.
This guy that I mentioned above was the same guy that helped me when I got married to my wife. We under budgeted and spent some of our free money in other places, this put us behind about $400 going into the last 6 weeks. With both of our next checks being taken away by rent and with other bills that were already late, I simply called him to vent to him, because he is a great listener, well he did something that I didn’t expect. He showed up at our house with a load of cash that he had gotten out of the bank to give it to us. The amazing part is that as he told us that this was just part of our wedding gift. We were able to pay the rest of our wedding off, and was able to pay for part of our honeymoon.
Then came the time where my thermostat went out in my car. I was on the road at 11p.m. and all of a sudden my car started to overheat to the point that my engine was knocking. My heart dropped, all I had was $30 in my name, and that was going to gas for the next two weeks. I called this man and he was at my house within a day to fix the thermostat. Let me remind you that it was the time in Illinois where we were having -11 degree weather. He stood out in the cold for almost two hours fixing the car.
Also, there was a time where my wife and I were having a big trouble in our relationship. We were planning a wedding and were fighting alot. I was stressed to the max, and I wanted to give up and leave, but when I called him, he simply laughed and told me to get back in that house and take my wife out to a nice dinner. He wasn’t going to accept that I was going to leave, but would do anything in his power to keep someone as myself happy, as he would for anyone else.
He has always been here for me, even when his house burnt down. He will do anything for anyone without the mindset that you owe him. Actually we were talking last night about my cousins wedding and I asked if he was going to marry them, he said yes. I chuckled and asked him how much he was getting. He then told me that it wasn’t about the money, but that God would want him to help someone in need. He is so caring, he doesn’t want people to feel stressed to help him, but he will stress himself to help someone in need. That is who he always has been, and to think that at one time in my life, I took him for granted. He is only my father, I thought. But now I end the night thanking God that I was able to be a part of his life, and better yet his only son. He is my biggest fan and I love him. Even if I don’t say it in person. Dad I really look up to you and I love you!