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Welcome back! It has been so dang long and I do apologize for that. It has been the roughest year of my young life, and that has caused me to not want to write. But nonetheless, we are back in action. I won’t be posting nearly as much as I use to, but know that you will be getting a blog 4 out of 7 days. This is solely because posting 7 days a week is just too draining and I don’t want to find myself hating this again. Not that I could ever hate you, guys. Wink, wink! Also, with the change of the schedule, I will also be giving this blog some direction. This will help you guys know what is going on at all times and will finally give this blog a name. For most of this blogs existence, I have posted whatever comes to mind, which can be hard to pull in outsiders, since people only read what they think will affect them. In this “Revival” of “Impromtdude” We will be leaning more towards encouragement. Meaning 2 of the 4 post will be uplifting messages to help you guys get through the day, then the other 2 days will be reviews, promotions, writing prompts, thoughts, lessons, or anything else I can think of. I really feel that will bring life back into this keyboard, and will give you guys encouragement to face your demons. I have to say that I am glad to be back and I hope you enjoy the upcoming projects, as I am excited to share my thoughts and talents with you guys. Thank you for reading!

Don’t let toxic people ruin your shine.

When I was going up, I lived with my mom. At 7 years old, you are looking to your parents for the right and wrongs. You are over being that toddler that is running around the house, and you aren’t quite the man that is taking girls out. You are right in the middle. These are the times that you really need a strong backbone to know what is wrong and right and you need that person to push you in the right direction. She wasn’t this, though. She taught me, at such a young age, that hate is good and that you must judge everyone on their actions. Most of her lessons were, of course, about hating my dad, as she taught me that he wasn’t around because he was a bad father, not because she had a restraining order on him. She also taught me that it was okay to steal, lie and cheat. This led me to lying to people, cheating in class, and stealing (to the point of being banned from a gas station at 8 years old!) This went on for many years. When I grew up, I ended up being like her in many ways. I would blame others when I didn’t get my way, I lied to girls to get what I wanted, and I got in trouble for stealing; all things that she taught me because she was a toxic person.

This was all said to tell you that you don’t need or want toxic people in your life. They will tear you down and only will use you for their pleasure. They don’t care about you or how you feel; they only want what they can get. If you stop giving it to them, then they will leave you and treat you like they treat everyone else. You will become nobody in their eyes, because they won’t be able to use you as a puppet.

Toxic people come in many forms; boyfriends, girlfriends, best friends, bosses, coworkers, and most importantly family. Anyone in your life can be toxic. Toxic people just want everyone to be as miserable as they are. Boyfriends will use words to cut down their girlfriends (and vice versa,) usually telling the girl that she is ugly, fat or stupid. This is usually in attempt to make her feel so low about her own self that she would never think about leaving him. Your coworkers can be toxic by the way they talk to you or about others. Getting that promotion is their only goal, and they will do anything to get it, even putting you through the ringer. They also take time and gossip about your other workers, mainly to make themselves look better, which can make the workplace dangerous and full or drama, which was their goal all along. Drama is soul food for these people. But one type of toxic person, one that we didn’t think should be on this list, is your family. Family is supposed to be there in thick and thin. They are supposed to support your feelings, your dreams and also should see your side of the story. They should understand that you aren’t always going to like someone or agree with everyone. They should show you the love that you always gave them. This isn’t always the case, though. Some families are full of drama seeking  hateful judgers that want everyone to hear them, but never want to listen. Such as my mom, they want everyone to see their side and only their side. They will do everything in their power to convince others that you are wrong and that they are right. Most families will break apart because of the toxicity feelings.

What should we do about toxic people? CUT THEM OFF. Don’t let your boyfriend talk to you like he does, remove yourself from conversations will negative people, and if you need to, cut your family off. You have a life to live, so don’t let others bring you down. Life is too stressful to allow others to fill you will negative thoughts and feelings, so cut them off. You will never change their mind; you will never do them justice. Every word that you speak will go in one ear and out the other, so stop wasting your breath. Get a knife and cut the ties, because you will be happier that way! I saw a big change when I cut my mom off. She wanted to blame my dad for my bad childhood and wanted to tell me that it was his fault, but I knew the truth. The truth was that she was just hateful and wanted to avoid being the blame, so she pushed it on someone else. I thought that I could pull her up and show her that no one was to blame fully, but I saw quickly that she was pulling me into negativity, and if I didn’t release her hand then I would become the same type of person. It won’t work! You put yourself at risk anytime you try to pull these people out of their toxicity! But it is so easy to pull you down.

I have seen so many toxic people in my life, but that is also why I don’t talk to that many people. I don’t dance with snakes and I don’t drink with fools. Being around toxic people is as dangerous as dancing in the middle of a freeway, you will eventually be flattened! Don’t let that happen, though! Get up, cut those people off, and live your most positive life. It will be hard to cut these people off, especially at the family level, but you need to do it.  Stop letting them ruin your most happy days, take them back already!

Thank you for all your support. This is my first time writing a blog in almost a year and dang did it feel so good. I miss this feeling. I will have something up soon to tell you guys what will be posted and when. I have a few big projects coming in the next few weeks that I will need your help on, ill post more details soon. Thank you for the support and I love you.

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I am sick…..
I hate being sick. I really don’t like the fact that I am without all my energy, when I am usually very active. When I get sick, you will see a brand new Blake. This sick Blake wants to sleep and watch YouTube videos. He wants to relax and hurry to recovery, but with a job that becomes hard sometimes.
I am sick. I haven’t felt good for at least three days, and it got worse today. It all started Friday, when I woke up with a very sore throat, but I figured it was nothing, so I continued my life. But Friday afternoon I got a very bad headache. The headache I got was from my sinuses, which was probably from all the cleaning supplies I have been using at work. It usually takes a day for my sinuses to stop, so I was just going to let it go away by itself, while using less chemicals and getting more fresh air. That’s when I decided to go to this concert, in Jacksonville. I was hoping that being outside would kill the chemicals present in my body. I had a blast that night, we got to be feet from the bands, and got amazing food during the concert. After the concert, we went to a local pizza place. When the pizza got to us, all my body began to ache. I was no longer hungry. I sat there, in pain, as everyone else devoured the pizza. I was tired, my head hurt, my back hurt, and my eyes were burning. The worse part was- I had to go to work the next morning, at 6.
Friday night we got home at Midnight, giving me a good 5 hours to sleep. This wasn’t going to be enough to help my 9 hour day, at work, on Saturday. The moment that I got to the bed I felt that my body was trying to relax, but it wasn’t happening. I wanted to go to bed once I got home, but I think I ended up staying up a hour later than planned. I don’t know about everyone else, but I need my sleep when I don’t feel good, or it just gets worse. Well that is what happened. Saturday morning, I woke up with the biggest headache and sore throat. I wanted to call in, but I know I need the money, so I told myself that it would go away. I filled my long shift, fighting every second of the day, while my body fought me back harder. I felt that I was losing the fight, so Saturday night, I decided to go to bed early. When I woke up the next morning I felt slightly better, though I still had the sore throat, I felt a lot better than I did before. After work, I went home and started to clean our bedroom, as we about to rearrange our whole house. I wore myself out, quickly, but I knew that it needed to be done, so I fought through the tiredness and got the job done. That is the bad part, though. Since I wore myself out, I was unable to get all of the hours of sleep, last night.
When I woke up this morning, it was all horrible. I opened my eyes to feel the burn. The burn was in my eyes and in my throat. I swallowed a little saliva and it nearly killed me. It hurt so bad, but I knew that I had to go. I had to go to work, I couldn’t miss today. I got up from my bed, and got dressed, while my eyes were still burning. I thought this was just from being tired, but it soon revealed to be a big part of my sinus infection. I got to work. I opened the gate, and started to drink my energy drink. With every sip, my throat seemed to get worse. That is when I stopped drinking it. I didn’t want to make it worse. I got another drink, but even that hurt. With water not helping, I decided to stop drink, all together. During our lunch rush, I felt my head getting heavy, my eyes were killing me, and I started to get dizzy. From that moment on, I wasn’t the same Blake. I was able to finish the day, and I should be able to work tomorrow, I just hope that I can get to Wednesday, so that I can finally sleep during my day off. I don’t know if it is sinuses, or maybe a cold. Either way, the pain is getting on my nerves. I hate being sick, I just hope this ends very soon!  

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Ten things I want to do on my day off.
I want to relax on my day off, but that isnt the only thing I want to do. I want to spend my time doing one thing, instead, I want to do as much as I can, so it actually feels like a day off. My day usually starts at 5:30 a.m. so I can get a good start on what I want to do. The list of things that usually happens, on my day off, is here now!

1. Listen to a lot of music. This usually contains NF, Mud diggers, Any country, Beethoven and Eminem. I like to keep a nice mixture, in order to not get burnt out from the same beats, or stories. This usually works, though some days I will stick with NF.

2. Watch Tv- I like to catch up on the world of sports, usually NFL and golf. I watch a lot of golf, in order to get my swing down, and a lot of NFL to get updated for Fantasy football. Sometimes I will watch a horror movie, but usually it’s just sports playing in the background.

3. Read- I have discussed this before. In order to be a good writer, you must read good writing. This is why I try to read something on my days off, though, sometimes it doesn’t work. I like to read “The Walking Dead” By Robert Kirkman, but sometimes I will read a book about grammar, plot placement, or fun facts. It may vary, but most days I will read a chapter in each book.

4. Practice my golf swing- Lately, I have been getting into golf more. I like to go outside and swing, but being downtown, that is impossible to do, so I spend hours practicing my putting. I have foam practice balls that I like to practice hitting, using my new practice mat, but usually it’s just my putting.

5. Play video games- This is one of the last things that I will do, that’s if I am really upset or have nothing else to do. Usually if I play, I will play some Fallout or NBA.

6. Clean- Yeah, I like to pick up things. I wont deep clean though. I am too “Busy” for that.

7. Social media- I spend a lot of my day off, on social media. I like to use this day to see what everyone else is doing, and if they have anything to talk about. It engages my audience, and its nice to catch up with friends.

8. Sleep- I love my sleep.

9. Shower- I like to soak in the shower, relaxing and thinking. This is usually where I get new ideas, and where I practice my vocals!

10. Write- I’m a writer, because I love to write. This is the day that I get to sit back, and do something I love to do. I spend most of my day off writing. It is the best time, since I am usually alone.

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I don’t know what is in milk, but anytime I drink it; I fall asleep. Today I wanted to spend a lot more time writing, and less sleeping (like yesterday). But I drank literally 3 oz. of chocolate milk and fell asleep, now it is 9:42 A.m. and I am just starting, this is becoming a problem, but this isn’t the first time milk has caused me to be late for something.
Ariel and I have two cars, but we don’t drive both of them. We let the other one sit around and collect dirt. The biggest reason it sits around, is because we need a new alternator and we never have time to work on it. But we are comfortable with using one car, our schedules work well together, so we chose to only use one car. It saves on gas, which is always nice, but that also means I have to be on my toes.
I have to remember the time she gets off, because I don’t want my wife to be waiting in the parking lot, after hours, waiting for me to show up. Then one day, she was off at 1 p.m., I had the car. I drove her to work then came home. I stopped by a gas station on my way home and bought a quart of chocolate milk. When I got into my house, I sat down on the couch turned on sports center and drank the chocolate milk, the chemicals in the milk caused me to fall asleep.
Now, when I say fall asleep I’m not talking about a cat nap, milk causes me to go into a coma nap. Phone calls are missed, fires are undetected, and bad storms are not noticed. Milk paralyzes my mind to the outside world, which isn’t good when you only have four hours until your wife is off.
Anyways, I fell asleep and woke up with 6 missed calls. I looked at the time, it was 1:30 p.m., thirty minutes after she got off, I knew I was in trouble. I jumped off the couch and began to run to our car. I got into the car, turned the ignition, and called her. She answered the first ring, and asked where I was. I simply told her that I drank some milk and fell asleep. She laughed and told me to hurry up. Luckily she wasn’t too mad, but it just comes to show that milk and me don’t like each other, which sucks because I am a huge victim to shin splints due to that reason.`

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I have a feeling, one that is of my heart. One that says, no matter the struggle, I will stand tall. I will overcome anything that the demons have for me. I will do anything to become the person that I know I can be. I will be the one that God made me to be. I will make him proud. That attitude is starting today.
I have always had a negative tone to my voice. It is annoying tone, and one that I wish I could get rid of, but it seems like when something is going good, something stupid happens. I feel that if I have two good days, then that means that I will have three bad days. That is usually what happens, too, but it isnt because bad things happen, though. It is because I will dwell on the bad instead of the good. Little things become big deals to me, on those days. If someone flips me off, as an example, that will ruin my day, and put me in a bad mood. This is how my mind works, and has worked for years. But all this will change, starting today.
I cant be depressed, anymore. I have too much good going for me. I am at the top of where I can be at my job, and I make good money. I always have extra cash at the next paycheck. My bills are always fully paid off, and there is never a question if we will have the money to pay next month. We get to go out, and have fun. We have a warm house. My writing is starting to catch attention of some viewers. I have nothing to stress about, anymore.
I have to get out of this down-mood, or I will never further myself in life. I will have a bad day, and will cut everyone off. But the worse part is; when I get into a bad mood, my blog suffers horribly. I will be angry when I edit the post, and it causes me to think badly of perfectly great work, which in the end is gutted and posted anyways. Then when I simmer down, I look at the support, and wonder why I hated the blog so much in the first place.
But when I was sitting here, I began to think. I wondered why I was always in a bad mood. There was the pattern, listed above, and I knew I needed to change. That is when I began to change for the better. Every time something stupid happens now, I just remind myself of the amazing days that are coming up. This has tripled the amount of Good days I have, in a week. I seem to be happier, and my blog is enhancing due to it. I am proud that I am feeling this way. I know it is needed, and I hope that you guys can take my experience and make your attitude better, as well!   

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