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So the Colts and Cowboys were eliminated from the playoffs. The Cowboys tried to fight back but with no evidence of a run game killed them. I believe Zeke was held under 50 yards.

The Colts should have ran the ball more to tire out that defense. It just shows that the Colts have the right Weapons but they just aren’t loaded yet.

This is what I see for the rest of the playoffs;
Chargers won’t play good ball and will lose to New England.

The Dome is still the hardest place to win and Eagles secondary gets ripped apart by Brees.

The championship will be Pat’s and Chiefs. A replay of week 6 (correct if wrong) but this time Mahomes gets it done and goes to his first Superbowl, in a nail biter. This will be that game that is much better than the Superbowl. There is always that game.

I don’t want to go against Donald and Gurley, but I will. For some reason my gut tells me that the Rams can’t keep up with the Saints. But at the same time CJ is looking hot. They probably will run a 2 RB game that would confuse NO but I don’t think it’s enough. Saints by 10

We are to the Superbowl. Remember that saying; defenses win Championships? That’s what this comes down to. Not so much the defense scoring or playing great, but which defense can Outlast these great QBs. Mahomes has such a rounded out offense, with stars in almost every position. Hill is amazing, Kelce is just great and Williams has rose to the occasion.

But as said before, their secondary is weak. I feel that if its a close game Brees could pull off the win by throwing deep. But the electric offense of the Chiefs, with their star QB could make Brees wish he retired. I’ll go in and say the Chiefs score early and often and become our next Champs.

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I wrote this letter when Ariel and I were first dating. We just got our own apartment together and were going through something, so I wrote this to her. I might not be the best person, but I know where my heart resides.

When you look into the mirror at times I don’t believe you see what I see.

When I look at your face I see true beauty! I also see the pain of a childhood that I wish I could take away but I can’t. If I could I would in a second, because you deserved so much better than what you got. I promise to always help you through the days that you feel the ugliest, because when you ask me what I think about you. My answer never changes. I think and know that you are the prettiest girl in this world. I wish one day you can look in the mirror and see what I have seen for the last 11 months!!!!

I walk up these stairs every day, yet I don’t see the just as a few pieces of wood. No I think of all the times we walk the same stairs to get to our cozy little room that we can officially call our own.

It makes me remember the day we came to this place to sign papers, knowing that it was official that we were living together. A lot has been said since then, but every night we go up these stairs, even if we are frustrated at each other, to fall asleep in each other’s arms. I treasure the chance to do this, especially with a princess like you babe!

One can say that love fades, but I find that to be a lie. We have been through a lot, more than most couples go through all their relationship. They would crumble under the weight of all the drama, hurt, past regrets, parental disagreements, threats, tears, and occasionally getting kicked out of your own house. But we lasted through the shit to see ourselves planning the most beautiful wedding in the history of marriage. I can’t wait for the day we can finally seal the deal and make our lives come fully together. To add another crazy ass to a family that’s crazy enough. It’s my pleasure to change your name. So when people say that love fades that’s just because they based their relationship on things that fade, but we based ours on things knowing that they would change and knowing we would have to adjust!!!

How do I get over her?

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How do I get over her?

When I was seventeen, I met the girl that changed my world. She isn’t my wife, now, but she helped me prepare myself for Ariel. I don’t know if this is okay to talk about, but know that my feelings are no longer strong about this girl. She is married now, and I am happy with who I am with. But I think someone needs to hear this and the only way to tell you guys is to bring her back up, so sorry if you guys think its disrespectful to Ariel, but know that I never meant for it to be. Please read this with an open mind, and don’t forget to share it! Someone needs to hear this.

 

I met this girl when I was seventeen. We went to a conference with the same youth group. I didn’t know anything about her, as she didn’t know about me, either. I never went to her church, but my old youth pastor was her youth pastor, at the time. He invited me to go with them, which I was excited to go to find God, but little did I know, I was about to meet someone that would go on to change my life, forever. She said hi first, and I ignored her because I was shy.

 

After the service, I went up to say sorry and she said that she understood, so I introduced myself and we began to talk. This was the start of the best part of my life (up to this point in time, of course not now) we got to know each other better each day, and we never went a day without talking. With every day that went by, I was learning more about life, God, and how to love. I changed my career path and got accepted into the same college that she was going to. We planned to go to the same school so we could be close (in order to help each other get closer to God. As we knew it can be hard to adapt.) We agreed to begin to court once we turned 18, but the more we talked, the feeling began to get stronger. Long story short; she called it off shortly after we got close; saying that her family didn’t think it was a good idea. We went our separate ways. This is what I call the dark days.

 

Losing her took a huge blow to my faith, as I couldn’t focus on anything but the fact that she wasn’t close to me anymore. I could count on my youth pastor, but he was busy with his life, and took a job at the church she attended, so I thought I had to get through this alone. The more that I fought to get over her; the more I felt the waves crashing into me. I drowned in my faith and became depressed. This led me to staring at walls for hours, not praying as much, and questioning if God was real. It got so bad that my pastors pulled me into the side room and questioned if I was okay. Kids in school asked me if I was okay; literally one day I was shining, the next I was dark and emotional. I never thought I could get over her, but I did.

 

You probably have gone through this, or are going through this now, and you may be asking how I did it? How did I get over her? It took a long time, but by doing four things, I was able to get over her, finally; realizing it was for the best, knowing that someone was out there for me, giving space and being happy for her. Let’s see what I mean;

 

  1. Realizing it was for the best.

This meant that I had to agree that I wasn’t the best option for her, and she wasn’t the best option for me. This can be hard when you first break up or break a courtship off, because the feelings are still fresh, but over time you will see that it is for the best. She was what I wanted, but not what I needed. She had different dreams; ones that I didn’t want. She wanted to see the eastern part of the world, where I was more into spreading the word to locals. This being said, our lives were never going to match up, which is good to know that neither of us are held back now, because she married in the east and I married in the local part of Illinois. What I am saying is there was a reason that it didn’t work out, you may not know right now, but one day you will know and you will smile, knowing that you were able to set her/him free and were able to do your own thing, without anything holding you down or back.

 

  1. Knowing someone was out there for me.

I have always wanted to find the perfect girl, fall in love, get married and eventually have kids. When she left, I thought all of that was over, but shortly after her leaving, I talked to someone and they said to have faith someone is out there. I didn’t want to believe it, because I didn’t want to believe that anyone could be better than her. Now that I look back on that conversation, he was right. It was scary to think that I would never meet someone, but the truth is; she was out there! She was waiting patiently for me. Know that when you close one door, another door will be opened for you. IT may hurt to go through, but the pain will be healed once you walk through that door; because your first love never amounts to your true love.

 

  1. Giving her the space she needs, also the space I need!

I had respect for this girl, so I never wanted to step over boundaries. I wanted to give her the space that she needed, wanted.  I knew that I couldn’t get over her if I was seeing her weekly, so I didn’t involve myself in events that I knew she would be at, or at least events that I knew we would have to talk a lot. When I graduated, I gave her the space by going to another college, letting her go to CBC without me. I attended a different seminary, hoping that moving would take away the pain, and it worked. I attended World Revival School of Ministry in Kansas City, Missouri. This school was all about finding a new level to your relationship with God. I never had time to think of her, and I was maturing as a person.

 

When I came back home, I was able to talk to her with no pain, at all. We were able to talk as friends, sharing our passions without thinking about the future together. It was nice, because in the end, she was still a great friend.   It is important to get yourself the room to cope with the heart break. This was the hardest part. I know it’s hard to watch someone you love move on, but you have to know that trying to force yourself into their arms will never work. Give them space, take your space and one day you could be friends (or in a special case, it could have been the wrong time for the relationship, and you could eventually fall in love, again.) I would rather have that person in my life as a friend, than not having that person in my life at all. It worked for me; I bet it can work for you, too!

 

  1. Be happy for the person!

Okay, so now we know that we have to realize better things are out there, that you won’t be alone forever, and that you have to give them space, but what should be the last thing? What will help? BE happy! Be happy for the person, be happy for your own growth; be happy that you can be friends; be happy that you didn’t have to live with the regret, be happy that you were giving the chance in the first place.

 

BE HAPPY!  So it didn’t work out! That doesn’t mean that it has to be all bad. You were able to spend that time with them, you were able to learn from this situation, and you were giving a second chance to find that somebody that will probably be better than the other one, anyway.  I am personally happy that she was able to find someone, get married and was able to change his world. I am happy that I was able to find Ariel, fall in love, get married, and start a small family one day. I am also happy that I was able to learn everything from my first love. But somethings just don’t work out, I am happy that I could live it, though. I know it hurts, but don’t let it get you down, forever.

 

Move on, and find a way to be happy. Surround yourself with friends during the dark days, and never be afraid to ask for help. I was stupid to think I had to do it all alone. You are never alone, so don’t try to do it alone. In all of this, find something to make you happy, because you deserve to be happy, with or without that person. When you do this, I bet you will get over him/her.

 

I think I have talked enough, so I will end it here. I know that you are hurting, which I’m sorry for, but it won’t always be like this. IT will get better, I don’t know when, but it will! Find friends to keep you occupied; let them help you piece yourself back together and get ready for the love of your life to come and sweep you up! You will be so happy that you didn’t stay with the one that got away. So space yourself, realize you won’t be alone forever, know it happens for a reason, and finally, be freaking happy. You will make it! I have faith in you!

Also check out my blog on First love vs true love!

Really quickly, I forgot that yesterday was Thursday..so allow me to put up a shameful picks for week 8. First we must talk about last week and why I almost quit watching football. I took a gamble and paid off with the Eagles pick! The Vikings are not going undefeated. This was my second huge prediction, but then the rest of the day was blah, leading to the worse game in history…The bills lost to the dolphins, yet they can beat the Patriots? WTF Rex…Just screw you! Chargers keep the Falcons’ losing streak going, and Big Ben’s injury gives Steelers the loss. Now let us talk about the Seahawks game. Two-flipping-chances, two kickers, twenty yards and we end on a tie? Seriously…Two kickers missed twenty yard field goals….Just stop it…oh my god, it’s real! I know that kicking isn’t easy, but these guys are getting paid a crap load of money, but they can’t make a field goal the same distance as a PAT? Get out of here! My new record is 51-37-1……

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Redskins @ Bengals

Winner- Bengals

Cardinals @ Panthers

Winner- Cardinals

Note:….This was hard to pick for, neither team is showing what they started last season, also Carson might be back. Other than that, I don’t think Panthers D is good this season.

Lions @ Texans

Winner- Lions

Note: I stood for the Osweiler signing. I didn’t understand the amount that they gave him, since he never played in their system but I was slightly happy and hopeful for him, I was wrong. He is struggling hardcore and he is the reason that they are losing. He has one of the best WR in the league, yet can’t get him the ball. I hope he gets better, but I see Geno Smith when he plays.

Seahawks @ Saints

Winner- Saints.

Chiefs @ Colts

Winner- Chiefs

Jets @ Browns

Winner- Browns

Note: Yes, the Browns get their first win, this week. Fitz is back and he is horrible, he will be the reason they lose.

Patriots @ Bills

Winner- Patriots

Raiders @ Bucs-

Winner- Raiders

Chargers @ Broncos

Winner- Chargers

Packers @ Falcons

Winner- Falcons

Eagles @ Cowboys

Winner- Everyone! But seriously, Cowboys.

Note: This is going to be an amazing game. There are four different things on Sunday night, but I want to keep tabs on this
game. It’s rookie vs. rookie. Which rookie will play better? Wentz or Dak? I have to stay with Dak. He is showing something rare, he looks like someone that has been in the league for years. Wentz has been playing amazing, also, but I say his defense will let him down. It’s going to be a race to the finish and whoever tires down quicker, losses. 

Vikings @ Bears

Winner- Vikings

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Weirdly I felt pretty.
Last night, I was walking through Wal-Mart with my wife, while trying to collect everything she needed for her work project. I have been getting into special effects, but I was missing a few items. We were in the right place, but the bad thing is we weren’t ready for what happened next, well Ariel wasn’t ready, anyway. “I need to buy some eye shadow!” Who said that? I will give you a hint, it wasn’t Ariel. Yes, I actually said that in the middle of Wal-Mart, don’t judge.

I was playing around with the Liquid Latex when I first started, but now I want to see if I can make this a hobby. I find that Special effects are quite fascinating, and something that I could see myself doing on my spare time. After a few attempts at making a masterpiece, I caught myself watching videos (on YouTube) on ways to get better. I quickly realized what I was doing wrong but also, I saw that I was needing different shades to make it look more realistic. I looked online at ways to shade, the results were vary but most said that I needed either a FX paint pallet or simple make-up. I don’t want to spend that much money on this, just in case I quit shortly, so I decided make-up was my best bet for now, but I don’t know anything about make-up, but Ariel does!

We were in the middle of the store when I proclaimed that I needed help. I don’t think she was ready for me to say what I needed help with. Her face confirmed that, but she was still willing to help, so we walked back to the designated aisle. I couldn’t believe how many types of eye shadows there were! I did notice that all of them are expensive, but I didn’t understand the difference or which one I needed to get. There we stood, in the make-up aisle, fighting over what product would look best on me. I felt like a girl as I told her that one product was too dark and that the others are too glittery. She shook her head in embarrassment as she grabbed her suggestion and left the aisle. I followed behind her holding my pick, she turned around and told me to put it down. I refused, so she took it from me and explained why it wasn’t the best product. I still had no idea what she was saying, it was like a foreign tongue, but I smiled and put the box down.

As we made our way up to the register, she told me that she didn’t feel like I was her husband, but more like a gay best friend. I laughed as I told the cashier why I was buying eye shadow. He told me that he knew what I was trying to do, since he has been following my activity on Facebook. Though he knew, Ariel was still really embarrassed that I was talking about it. She still is shaking her head, but she is supporting my work. She even went as far as showing my work to all her co-workers. One of her co-workers came up to me and told me I was great, also she offered to be a canvas if I ever wanted to practice.

I never plan on this becoming something more, but it is really fun to do. I find peace when I am giving myself “scars,” I don’t know how to explain the feeling but if I was to attempt, I would say “I am excited.” I am happy to find that I can use my artist abilities in other areas, other than writing. Maybe one day we could find a happy medium, of where my writing and this new hobby could meet, but lets not get ahead of ourselves. I still have a huge road ahead of me, in both areas, but this could be the start of something awesome. I find myself buying more and more tools for effects, so maybe I am wrong, maybe this could be something. Either way, I find my writing is getting better. Do you agree? Let me know.

Also, look at my work in special effects.  

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My Third Time, Ever.

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Sloppy but fun to do.

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I was impressed with my first effect. This needed more shading, but it was good for my first time.

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        This was one of my favorite blogs to write. I put my whole heart into this post, and now I am continuing it. I have a lot of thoughts that I need to get out so I will be making a follow-up post. That post will be asking the question “Did I wait long enough?” I can’t wait to share with you guys! But until then, enjoy the first part!

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First love vs. True love
        The moment you lay eyes on this person, you will feel something that no other boy/girl has ever made you feel. You will feel something inside not only your gut but also inside of your heart. It will feel warm yet cold. Being nervous is only one of the many things that being in love for the first time will bring you. As you dive deeper into this wonderful feeling. You will feel security, hopefulness, happiness, love, chills, and a clear mind.

       As you fall into love with the special person, you will begin to change for the better. You will realize that you are challenging yourself more, and hating yourself a lot less. You will begin to set goals that before you didn’t know you wanted to achieve. The awesome part is that this person will be by your side the whole time. They will push you to become the person that you want to become, and you will do the same thing for them. When you fall in love for the first time, everything in the world will slowly becomes about this special person. You will pick up new likes and dislikes as you begin to see his/hers. Their needs will become your needs. You will do anything to make sure that both of your needs/wants are met.

        Sadly, first loves don’t always pan out to the wedding day, but that is fine. You will take something from the time that you had with them. You will know what you want in a relationship, and you will set out to find someone just like that person, this person will be called “The True love.” This is the person that you will love for the rest of your life. They will make you feel like the first love, but a lot happier. As the first love, they will also push you to go farther in your dreams and passions. You will feel more open with them than you have ever been, especially after the heartbreak you experienced with the first love, they will repair your walls and teach you that its safe to love again. You will be happy again, yet deep inside you will still think about your first love.
        
         I was thinking the other night “What if my first love came back into my life?” I wasn’t the lucky one to be able to stay friends with my first love. Her family had a big part in that decision, and since I wanted the best for her, I let her go. It hurt more than anything that I have ever experienced in my life to let her go. But time healed my broken heart and I finally got married to the love of my life.

        I still think about my first love and that’s okay, I gave her a part of my heart. To think I won’t think of her is insane. I want to know she is safe, but then the other night I began to question myself. “what would I do if she wasn’t okay?” I have a wife to care for, I can’t leave and help her. But then again, she was my first love. I would do anything to help her, that is what I promised her. 

         This question is almost like asking “Would I let my wife or my child die, if there were complications in delivery.” But then as I began to type this post, I started to think. If True love is stronger than first love, then I would be able to confidently make the decision to help her. My love for my wife is stronger than the love I ever had with my first love, and it always will be, nothing in the world could separate us. My first love will always have a spot in my heart, but that’s all. Anything more than a thought is simply impossible.

         So if you are dealing with someone that came back into your life and you are wondering what you should do, remember the feeling that you had when you met your first love, and now think of the feeling you had with your true love. Which ever one is stronger indicates your true love.  

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   In the past week, I have discovered something that nearly kills me inside. I was on Facebook, and as I was scrolling through the many posts by friends I don’t really know anymore. Its sad to think that way, but to be honest since I started to work I haven’t been able to breath. Anyways back to topic, as I was looking at a forward photo, most of the time I would run right through them without a single thought, but this photo was more than I could imagine.

            The picture seemed inappropriate at first as I stared I realized that it was all but that. In the picture there was a girl and a male in bed (Let me say they were wrestling, for the younger viewers.) The girl and guy had writing on their bodies. The girls read “He’s my first,” I began to examine the guys back where the numbers numbed my mind. Thirty check marks layered his back.

            This was a shock to me, because I have never thought about “Wrestling” with that many girls. This guy seemed to not have a single problem with it. I quickly closed the picture saying, “He is such a pig” and BAM. I was hit in the gut by a thought. This thought was this “What’s the difference of this man and all them girls, and a man leading girls on.”

            This thought nearly broke my heart, because though I don’t mean to, I do lead some girls on. I know its very bad of me, and I have got so much better with controlling myself while talking to girls. Something so simple as telling a girl she’s pretty can come off as “girl you are totally my type.” Though I don’t know if a girl really thinks that, I do know that it has to be in that ballpark.

            Since that thought had come to my head from what seems to be Jesus, I have thought of ways to stay away from that type of zone. It’s hard for a man that has a habit of flirting. This post is different from the others, because usually it’s about my first love or just something random, but this picture opened up my slightly callused eyes. This is what I want to say about this overall.

            That girls are more than special, they are fragile. They need someone to have a serious promise, not just a good pickup line. Before you start to flirt with a girl, and get her to like you. You should really ask yourself inside, is she really the one; or am I just going to waste time. For us men that don’t mean to flirt; you should really think about this. I know where you are at, because I’m flirtatious. The way that I have controlled myself over this slight change in my life is: be patient, Try to stay away from “Your cute, hot, sexy” Trust me this will help, and finally become a friend of the girl with signs of friendship. Now if you began to really feel something for her, don’t be a girl, but also don’t jump into something that you might regret in the first week.

            I am sorry if some parts of this are confusing, I just wanted to express some emotions.

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We ran to the other side of the room, missing the attackers grasp by inches. He stared at us with a dirty grin and picked up his shovel. As he walks towards us, he throws the head of the shovel into a stack of plates, shattering all of them, and throwing broken glass on to the kitchen floor. I let out a really loud scream as the glass hits the ground. But Amanda was staying calm, she stood in the middle of the old man and myself. She began to reason with the man.

“Sir, this isn’t what it seems. You think that we were trying to cross into your territory but that isn’t the case. We were out of alcohol, and we didn’t want to stop the party. That was the fastest way to the convince store, so we thought taking that would help. We didn’t even know you were still back there in that trailer. We weren’t trying to make you angry. If you leave now, everything that happened tonight will be forgotten.”

Amanda took a step towards the man, trying to show that she was serious, but she over stepped her boundaries. He grabs her by her throat and starts to choke her. She broke lose the first time by slamming her arm down into his elbow. But he quickly recovered and got her back into the choke hold. I was frozen to the wall as I watched my best friends’ face turning color. I knew that I needed to do something or she would be dead in no time. So I run over to the kitchen and grab one of the pieces of glass off the ground and walk over to the man that was on his knees and this point. I jab him in the back with the glass. This caused him to grab me and throw me on the ground.

He walks over to me, saliva running down his chin, his tongue sticking out fully, as if he were trying to bite the organ off. He took his foot and pushed me back fully on the ground, and lifted his leg as he was about to stomp on my head. I had my whole life flash in front of my eyes as I close my eyes and started praying to God. There was a loud manly scream, then I felt someone grab me, I started to push the person off as I open my eyes. It was Amanda telling me that we needed to run.

We got outside and tried to get into her car, but the Maniac was parked behind all the cars. She looks at me and then tells me that we could run into the woods and run to the old prison. We decide that is the best option at this point, and started to run to the woods. At that moment the door to the house flew wide open, releasing a man with a missing eye. Amanda had jabbed him in his eye to save my life making this man very angry. He started to run towards us. We got to the edge of the woods and look back, he is running full speed at us. We take off again as we try to outrun him.

He got into the woods and took at different path, we lost our site of him, but we could hear his shovel bouncing off each of his passing trees, then when we were expecting it, he appears out of the shadows and slams his shovel into Amandas’ ankle, breaking the bone. Amanda lets out a big scream, and tries to run away, he tried to hit her again, but this time I ran up to him and put my finger deeply into his missing eye, he screamed as Amanda got up. When I saw her limping away, I threw my leg into his balls and ran away, catching up to my friend and helped her. 

It was five minutes later when we finally saw a house up the way, we need to get her ankle elevated, not thinking that he was going to catch up to us, we decide to take a break in the house. We hurried into the house, Amanda immediatly took a seat as I looked around the house. This house was filthy, there were cans of beans laying around, clothes on the ground, and cocroaches climbing the walls. This was a horrible place to be, but it was going to do until we could go back outside. With the premises checked, I want to see how bad her ankle is, so I walk over to her and ask her to take off her shoe. As she took off her shoe, I could see that she had broken the bone. It was swollen with a sharp piece of bone pushing out her skin. He had shattered the bone in complete, but it was something that a doctor could easily fix when we get her to the emergency room. She was being so tough, she is trying to get me to laugh, but my only worry is her and her health.

“Oh shit” Amanda whispered to me as she ducked down, I followed her and asked her what it was. She explained to me that she heard a whistle, the same sound that the guy made as he walked up on her and Alex early that night. I wanted to see if there was any sign of him, but Amanda told me to not check.

I sat there holding on to her scared to death. She was just sitting there though, it was as if she didn’t care what happened next. We heard the whistle getting louder, so I took the leadership and told her that I was going to check out the window for the man. As I glanced out the window, I saw the man. He was standing a hundred yards away, patting his shovel against his arm. As I was about to get back down, he looked over at me, he noticed that we were in the house, so he started to walk this way.

I got sat back down and told Amanda that we need to get down and hide. She pulled the cover over her head with a hammer, that she found in a toolbox, and lied there. I lied next to the couch, in a position that the window was a blind spot for anyone.

We have been sitting in our position for almost ten minutes, so I figure that it was clear to get back up and make sure that he had left. I got up and looked out the window, I can’t see anything, but then as I was about to get Amanda, the man put his head through one of the holes in the boarded windows and tried to grab me, I scream, immediatly Amanda got up and smashed his hand with the hammer. I helped Amanda get up and helped her limp out of the house. But as we got out of the house, the man came around the corner, forcing us to take another route.

We didn’t get far until Amanda couldn’t go any farther. Her ankle was finally hurting more than she could bare. She fell to the ground, with the guy only a few yards away, I tried to get her back up but she couldn’t. She tries to tell me to leave her, but that wasn’t an option. “I will die with you before I leave you.” I got ready for the battle of my lifetime!

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First love vs. True love
Important: this is an old blog, I wanted to share it with you guys, again. I hope that is okay. It has a powerful message, a message for anyone dealing with heartbreak over your first love. I hope you enjoy! Love you!
        The moment you lay eyes on this person, you will feel something that no other boy/girl has ever made you feel. You will feel something inside not only your gut but also inside of your heart. It will feel warm yet cold. Being nervous is only one of the many things that being in love for the first time will bring you. As you dive deeper into this wonderful feeling. You will feel security, hopefulness, happiness, love, chills, and a clear mind.

       As you fall into love with the special person, you will begin to change for the better. You will realize that you are challenging yourself more, and hating yourself a lot less. You will begin to set goals that before you didn’t know you wanted to achieve. The awesome part is that this person will be by your side the whole time. They will push you to become the person that you want to become, and you will do the same thing for them. When you fall in love for the first time, everything in the world will slowly becomes about this special person. You will pick up new likes and dislikes as you begin to see his/hers. Their needs will become your needs. You will do anything to make sure that both of your needs/wants are met.

        Sadly, first loves don’t always pan out to the wedding day, but that is fine. You will take something from the time that you had with them. You will know what you want in a relationship, and you will set out to find someone just like that person, this person will be called “The True love.” This is the person that you will love for the rest of your life. They will make you feel like the first love, but a lot happier. As the first love, they will also push you to go farther in your dreams and passions. You will feel more open with them than you have ever been, especially after the heartbreak you experienced with the first love, they will repair your walls and teach you that its safe to love again. You will be happy again, yet deep inside you will still think about your first love.
        
         I was thinking the other night “What if my first love came back into my life?” I wasn’t the lucky one to be able to stay friends with my first love. Her family had a big part in that decision, and since I wanted the best for her, I let her go. It hurt more than anything that I have ever experienced in my life to let her go. But time healed my broken heart and I finally got married to the love of my life.

        I still think about my first love and that’s okay, I gave her a part of my heart. To think I won’t think of her is insane. I want to know she is safe, but then the other night I began to question myself. “what would I do if she wasn’t okay?” I have a wife to care for, I can’t leave and help her. But then again, she was my first love. I would do anything to help her, that is what I promised her. 

         This question is almost like asking “Would I let my wife or my child die, if there were complications in delivery.” But then as I began to type this post, I started to think. If True love is stronger than first love, then I would be able to confidently make the decision to help her. My love for my wife is stronger than the love I ever had with my first love, and it always will be, nothing in the world could separate us. My first love will always have a spot in my heart, but that’s all. Anything more than a thought is simply impossible.

         So if you are dealing with someone that came back into your life and you are wondering what you should do, remember the feeling that you had when you met your first love, and now think of the feeling you had with your true love. Which ever one is stronger indicates your true love.  

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Impromtdude

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This is the best day of the year. What could be better than a day dedicated to pulling pranks on people? I love to play practical jokes on my friends and family. I like to plan these jokes in advance. I have been planning this one prank for the last week, simply waiting for this day, April Fools Day. I had every “i” dotted and every “t” crossed. I had my weaponry loaded, now I was waiting for a clear shot on my opponent, which was my workplace. I work at a pretty small restaurant, inside a Walmart. Our business has never been good, but it also hasn’t been this bad. The whole restaurant chain isnt doing well, since we are small, we haven’t been meeting targets. This was a perfect reason for our owners to shut the doors, and leave the employees without a job. That was the overall plan, to convince them our owners were shutting the doors for good.
The plan was to write a note and leave it on our security gate; so when the openers got in, they would see the note and freak out. My boss and I were there for inventory, so we would get to see and hear the initial reaction, and would be able to laugh it out with them. I spent last night writing a long note, acting as the owner, to tell them that he was sorry about closing the doors. The note was perfect, it was going to sell well. We just had to get it into the right hands, which is what happened.
There is this kid, Rick, that freaks out about small things. I appreciate him, he is a funny guy and is fun to mess with; that is why it was amazing that he got the note. He was the first one to work. When he got to the gate, one of the Walmart greeters told him that he needed to read the note. He opened the note and gave it a quick glimpse then gave the note over to the opening manager. The manager knew it was a joke. He knew that our owner wouldn’t leave such a note on the gate. He gave us the note, after giving us the note, we admitted to it being an April Fools. But as I thought the plan was spoiled, Rick came around the corner. He was clearly worried. He kept repeating the same thing “I can’t believe we are closing.” I laughed, as I thought he was going along with the joke, but then I realized, he truly believed the lie. He was now vulnerable to more of an attack. I wasn’t about to pass this opportunity up. I got together with my boss and came up with a follow up story, one that would make Rick freak out even more than he already was.
This is when we decided to come up with a list, a list of the people that would be transferred. Cleverly, my boss thought of a great idea. The only people that would be transferred would be managers, all the others would be giving a three-week notice. I laughed It out as I began to taunt him with the “news”. I could see the fear in his eyes, as he just was informed that he was no longer able to save his job. This was the start, though. I was still wanting to up the ante and get more people in on it. So when people would come in for their shift, I would tell them what we were doing, and they agreed to go along with it. This included freaking out about the news and throwing tantrums, until we sat him down to “fire” him. The prank got real fun when his replacement came into work. I hurried out to the lobby, and pulled each replacement to the side. I told them the story, and told them that we were coming up with a plan to “fire” everyone, I also informed them that they needed to freak out to the max.
During my conversation with the replacements, little did I know that my boss was scheming up a plan to make this kid cry. He got a employee roster and wrote down their “last day”, but put stars next to the names of people that were there for longer than six months, these people would be giving until the doors close to find a job. But there was a twist, an employee that was on probation (for a write-up) wouldn’t be giving this opportunity, but they would be the first to be fired; we decided to go this route, since the kid had just gotten back from a suspension. We wanted to get everybody hyped, so we got everyone together and informed them that our owner had giving us everyone’s last day, and told them that we would be talking to everyone, individually. Rick was the first on the list, so we asked him to come out into the lobby with us.
Rick, my boss, and I sat at one of the round tables, in the lobby. The look on Ricks face was priceless, he knew what was coming to him. He knew that he was the first one out. This made for a juicy grand finale, one that I hoped to make him cry. My boss shook his head and looked down at the roster. He began to tell him the reason for the note, and what it would mean for his future. I had to hold my mouth, as I was about to die from laughter. He explained that the owner wanted to give him three weeks, but since he was on probation, he decided to cut him first. His eyes were nearly watering, while he took all this in, but he stood tall and accepted it. My boss gave him the termination form, which read “April fools” at the bottom, after the explanation of the termination. Rick quickly signed the paper and told us that he would return his uniform tomorrow, as his lip trembled. We prompted him to read it over, again, which he did.
He jumped from the table and started to pace, after shouting. The whole restaurant exploded in laughter. Even customers were laughing after hearing a majority of the conversation. I walked to the back of the restaurant, dying from the laughter. The accomplices were standing in a line, waiting for a high five. I gladly slapped their hand while walking to the back. Rick came to the back and congratulated my boss and I on the prank. I gave him a high five, and walked out of the store. He followed. This is when I told him that the whole day was a prank, every second. He shook his head dumbfounded that he didn’t catch on. After all, what owner leaves a note on a closed gate?

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