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When did things change?

When did life get so hard? I remember being a teen, not having to care about bills. All I had to worry about was going to school and making sure my homework was done. I didn’t have to worry about being mature. I didn’t have to worry about car insurance, rent, or any of the many bills. It was such a good time! Times back then were stress less.

I was able to go to church whenever I wanted because I didn’t have any stress. Praying back in the day was so easy, reading the bible wasn’t a chore that I had to find time for. I had all the time in the world and it was awesome. I was able to get close to God then, but now it feels so hard and impossible to do so, which got me thinking; when did it get this hard?

I was 13 when I first got with God. I didn’t have to do anything. I could go to church whenever I wanted. I didn’t really have a job, so I could focus on my spiritual life. I am now 24, I have a wife, a job, and so much more going on. I find it hard to do the simplest things in life, let alone finding time to grow my spiritual body. I am always running, paying bills, going to the multiple stores my wife supervises, going to work, and then when I think I have time I remember that the house needs cleaned, also a blog needs done, and I need a nap, I also have to cook dinner, I need to do laundry, I promised to go to Chris’ house to help him. Life gets hectic, quickly and causes us to stress to get everything done! How do we make living simple again, though? The answer is to plan!

Wow! That is so simple, right? No! Because there are still only 24 hours in a day, and usually there isn’t enough time to get everything done. With it being impossible to get everything done, you will need to cut certain things and find what helps you the most, in the long run.

I have been listening to this Youtuber. He teamed up with another Youtuber to cover the topic of stress. He taught me that you have to plan 5 years in advance. We have to know what we want and when we want it. We have to know this so that we know what we need to do to get it. Then after you get your 5 year plan, then you must plan years before that. You need to know what steps you must take to achieve what you want. Then after you plan that, cut out everything that won’t help you get to the big picture. If you have to cut out Friday night bar trips, in order to get things done, then you should do it. For if you continue, and then you waste valued time doing things that will never matter. Then take that time and get things done to bring you close to your goals.

Take a moment today and make a plan. Know what you want to do in the future. Know where you want to be in the next five years, then go out and actually put it into work. It won’t work if you make it then throw it in a bin and walk away. You have to make the time to do these things, and you can’t do that without a plan. Life is so stressful, but you can make the best of it, if you just make a plan! SO go forward and find out what will help you achieve your goals!

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I said that I would be having a blog about love up, today, but that isn’t the case. I know I have been pushing this off, but my internet is still not fixed, of course!! UGH!!! AT&T, You suck! But either way, its best because today is a special day! Today, 5 years ago, I made the logo to this blog! I have always loved the blogs logo and I am happy to what it transformed from. I did 2 other “Main logo’s” that were bland and sad! I then went onto Word and started to play around with different tools and bam! I created my blog logo. I have been thinking about changing the name of my blog. If that happens, I will be making a new logo, but until then, let’s enjoy where we came from. Going way back to 2011 when I first started blogging. At the beginning  of Impromtdude, I use to take pictures on my phone, of the screen, then crop it, because I didn’t know how to export it. Lol

2012: When I first started blogging, my logo was seriously just the school that I wanted to go to. CBC (Central Bible College) was my logo for the blog, as I didn’t know logos were even that popular. Even if I did, I probably would have kept it simple, and left it the same way that it was.

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2013: My next blog was “A voice from beyond.” This logo is a stolen photo off of google. I now know that I can’t do that, and I since have unpublished the blog. But I like the design and kind of wish I did make it!

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Impromtdude was created in the late part of 2013. This was the first time that I wanted to make a blog an actual passion, so a cool logo was what I needed, though that didn’t come until 2015. I thought my first logo for this blog was so awesome and it finally gave an identity to the blog, even if I tried to replace it in 2014, with a far worse logo!

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2014 was a disaster for the logo department. I made the most horrendous logo that I even cringe looking back now! I don’t want to relive what I was thinking, because I’m sure drugs were involved, it’s the only reasonable explanation for an abomination that was once my logo!

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Now! The time was 12/1/2015 and I really wanted to get apparel going, but of course the current logo wasn’t good enough. It wasn’t even good enough to be my Facebook profile picture for my writer’s page. I remember reverting back to the old blog logo, because I just knew people hated the current logo. Knowing that the logo wasn’t good enough, I started to work on a new logo. I used the basic shapes in Word to make my logo. I think it turned out great! It has been the same for 3 years, now, and I love it still. It’s simple, but not bland, and I was able to even do different colors and ideas with it, including a cute valentine’s one and a snowy one! All logos have been included!

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I am happy where I came from. I finally have found a blog logo that I am happy with and I don’t really plan on changing it, unless the name change does happen, but even then, I know that logos are important, so know that the quality will be the highest! You guys deserve it! If I was to change my name, what would you want me to change it to? Leave a comment in the section below!

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I wrote this letter when Ariel and I were first dating. We just got our own apartment together and were going through something, so I wrote this to her. I might not be the best person, but I know where my heart resides.

When you look into the mirror at times I don’t believe you see what I see.

When I look at your face I see true beauty! I also see the pain of a childhood that I wish I could take away but I can’t. If I could I would in a second, because you deserved so much better than what you got. I promise to always help you through the days that you feel the ugliest, because when you ask me what I think about you. My answer never changes. I think and know that you are the prettiest girl in this world. I wish one day you can look in the mirror and see what I have seen for the last 11 months!!!!

I walk up these stairs every day, yet I don’t see the just as a few pieces of wood. No I think of all the times we walk the same stairs to get to our cozy little room that we can officially call our own.

It makes me remember the day we came to this place to sign papers, knowing that it was official that we were living together. A lot has been said since then, but every night we go up these stairs, even if we are frustrated at each other, to fall asleep in each other’s arms. I treasure the chance to do this, especially with a princess like you babe!

One can say that love fades, but I find that to be a lie. We have been through a lot, more than most couples go through all their relationship. They would crumble under the weight of all the drama, hurt, past regrets, parental disagreements, threats, tears, and occasionally getting kicked out of your own house. But we lasted through the shit to see ourselves planning the most beautiful wedding in the history of marriage. I can’t wait for the day we can finally seal the deal and make our lives come fully together. To add another crazy ass to a family that’s crazy enough. It’s my pleasure to change your name. So when people say that love fades that’s just because they based their relationship on things that fade, but we based ours on things knowing that they would change and knowing we would have to adjust!!!

 

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Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I won’t even attempt to tell you the history behind this day, I just know there were pilgrims, a bird and some yummy pie; all the things that still matter, even now. I bet they were sitting around a table, passing the feast that they worked so hard on, while telling their loved ones what they loved about them. I don’t think this holiday has changed all that much. I think the only thing that has changed is the fact that their families were really tight and they were actually grateful for things. Also, they probably didn’t have Christmas decorations up, yet. Gosh, what I would do to live back in their time. P.s. If you are the type of person to put up Christmas decorations before thanksgiving, know there is a special place in hell for you!

I know you are with family, so I’ll make this quick. I just wanted to say what I was thankful for this year. There’s so many things I am thankful for, and I plan to tell you guys every one of them. Sit back and enjoy, then tell me what you are grateful for!

Family- Of course, this has to be on the list. I am not only talking about my blood, but also you guys. Thank you for the support and keeping this blog alive. You guys are awesome, so keep doing what you are doing, but also my blood family. I know we don’t talk a lot but know that I do love you. I wouldn’t be me without you guys. I love you Grandma, Dad, Jakki, Jammi, Rikki, and Kenna. All the others that aren’t included know that you rock, also.

Job- I have to be thankful for the multiple jobs that I have. Between maintenance, Subway and construction, I don’t know how I have time. Either way, I am so thankful that I don’t have to sell drugs to buy groceries. I feel for those people. But that doesn’t stop me from being thankful.

Hobbies- We all know that I have a lot of hobbies, also that I like to quit hobbies quickly. But the one hobby that has never gotten old to me is writing. Yeah, I sometimes get burnt out, but I could never fully stop writing. It’s great to talk to myself in Word, but then be able to share those thoughts to you guys. It’s freaking cool!

My church- The situation is finally solved. I have done my time. Something really awesome came from this experience, though. During the lowest of my lowest time, I was able to find my passion for God, again. I was also able to find a home church. I love the people there, I love the atmosphere, and I love that it accepted me in my dirtiest, as one of their own! I am glad to be in this church.

Josh- Thank you for being awesome, josh. You don’t know how much you have changed my life. You have always known what to say in the hardest times. You were there when I needed you the most, and I’m thankful to have you in my life!

Ariel- my wifey! I know I make you mad, and I know that you have planned my murder a hundred times, but I know you could never kill me. I am thankful that I met you years ago. I love you more now than I ever have. Thank you for going to church with me and supporting me through everything. I can wait to grow old with you and finally have little Bentley.

Life- I am so thankful for another day of life. So many people have been taken from us! I am sorry for any one of those families. It has to be hard to lose someone that you are so close to, I couldn’t imagine the feeling. I am thankful that I am still living.

Everything- I don’t take for granted anything in life. If you have a part in my life, know that I cherish you.

I hope you guys have a good day. I know I am ready to tear into some good ole fashion turkey. I pray God’s hand over all of you, especially if you’re traveling. Take a minute and comment what you are thankful for. I would love to hear it!

What the hell, where am I? I think we have made a huge mistake. I don’t think I have anything to say. Yes you do! No I think they hate me, I know they think I left for good. How do I describe what has been going on. What if they lea…Shut up! They want to hear from you, they love you! Okay, but what do I talk about? remember that’s the reason that I left. I didn’t know what to say to them, I thought I was just saying the same thing every time. I don’t want to waste their…shut up and talk about life already!

Hi, guys. I wasn’t going to write today, but I have the time so why not. I just got done playing Friday the 13th, and OMG is it amazing! I have been playing a lot of the offline mode so I can play Jason more. I leveled up so I decided to stop playing for now, but I think I will be back on tonight. If you have a PlayStation, please drop your psn. LETS Connect!

Todays post is solely about what 2018 is going to be about. What am I going to focus on, what can you guys expect from me? I want to start by saying that 2017 wasn’t the best for Impromtdude, since I didn’t post in almost 8 months, which I feel crappy about, but understand that I had no motivation to write, and I felt like I was talking about the same thing. The big problem was that I posted daily. I forced myself to post daily, which I didn’t have the content for. If I had a long day, the last thing I was wanting to do was write, so I would do flashbacks, which was me copying from my past blogs and posting it. How original? Right! That also became hard to do, so I just gave up. I wanted to stop the website and let the domain fade until this whole blog fully died. But over the last couple weeks, I have been thinking about what I need to get back into and I thought of writing. I know the problem and I am ready to fix it. I will move on from this and get better. Don’t expect a daily blogger until I start feeling up to it, but for now, I am back!

I am no longer wanting to be a paid writer, this is just a hobby that I could eventually get paid to do, but for now, I just want it to be an outlet to talk to new people. I might post something that could change a life, or I could post something that is random, either way, this blog is now a hobby that I will take as serious as anything else. But as we talk about jobs, I guess I can tell you guys that I am looking for a new job. I am ready for a career change, I don’t know where I will go, but I am now looking for new doors to go through. I have learned so many things from my current job, but something just isn’t there, the passion that I use to have. I just don’t enjoy the job anymore. And if you know me, you know that I am either all in or all out, there is no in between for me, which is when I realized that I needed to take a step and remove the walls so I can be happy. I will talk more about this in the future.

I recently started doing a few new things. I am now collecting playing cards, and officially have over 30 packs. I signed up for a joy crate to get 2 new decks a month for only $7.99. I would love to show you guys the cards when they come in, and I probably will haha. I have cards so why not do something with them, which is why I am learning magic tricks and cardistry. I also play poker as much as I can. I never thought I would hate to not see poker on T.V. but damn do I hate not watching it every time its on.

Other than that, I also smoke cigars. My favorite brand is Acid and the best cigar I have had is an Acid Blondie. They are a high quality, cheap, cigar with a sweet wrap and a medium smoke, making it easy to smoke and enjoyable. Also doesn’t make a room stink so you can smoke them while playing poker!

Hmmm. I think that’s enough for today. I am making a schedule for all my hobbies, so I will post that soon!

You’re more.

Posted: November 21, 2017 in Uncategorized
Nothing in this world is worth your tears. Nothing will change the fact that you are awesome and deserve the best. You will change the world, only if you stop looking to the world for acceptance. IT will kill you, it will drag you to the pit of hell and leave you there if you let it. You are meant to do great things in life. You truly do have a purpose. Go out into the world, like the light that you are, and shine!!! Shine so bright that the darkness cant keep you depressed. You will shine so bright that the negative people cant stand to be negative anymore. You are awesome. You are meant to do great things, so go do them! Stop letting this world convince you that you are no good! You are golden!

 

WTF!!!! Tell me why,

Posted: October 7, 2017 in Uncategorized

I WATCHED A MAN ASSUALT A HOMELESS MAN!!!! while I was practicing. I happened to be walking the parking lot, collecting the golf balls I just hit, when I heard this man yelling. I got a little closer and realized that this man was screaming in his face, instead of yelling with this guy. I got a little closer to hear what the hell he was so mad about. He kept saying “Salvation army is that way you son of a bitch.” and other things, then I saw the homeless guy wipe his lip off as the other guy pushed him. When I saw him push him, I let angry get to me and yelled at him. “Leave the guy alone!!!” He continued to push him so I began to walk faster to the guy. I yelled a few things at him. That’s when the guy turned around and told me to mind my own fucking business! I got madder and told him to come over to me and face me like a man. He stopped yelling and went on with his life. The disappeared out of my sight, so I decided to stop fighting. But then as I got back to the road, the guy came back into the parking lot (about 50 yards away from me) and told me that it was my turn. I chuckled and kept walking. He then threatened to hurt me. I laughed and told him to get on with his life. He came closer and said that he would kill me. I turned around and started walking to him. He got on his bike and told me to mind my own business, that the guy stole $20 from him. I told him to come back, but he started to peddle quickly. Being a brave one, I started running after him, but he was gone in seconds.

 

My first thoughts were “Are you kidding me, why didn’t you just call the cops?” But then I started to think more, why would you assault a homeless man over $20. I didn’t know the situation, but I don’t think hitting someone is ever the answer, especially over money. Also, are you seriously so angry over a dub, when this man had nothing. He could have stole $20, but that might have been his first meal of the week, it could have helped him find shelter for one night. Stealing is never okay, but violence is worse! Then when you get called out, you turn around and try to fight me? Serious!!! Was I in the wrong???

NF is killing it!

Posted: October 7, 2017 in Uncategorized

, Today was the official release of “Perception,” which is NF’s (Nate Feuerstein) third studio album with Capitol. I have been geeking since I found out that he was releasing a new album! I think I have annoyed everyone that has been around me. I have literally been talking about this album everyday! I am a huge fan of NF and I cant wait to see what else he has up his sleeve. But for now, lets talk about the new album!

The album came out at 11:03 last night. I wanted to hear it so bad that I was going to stay up, but I had to work today, so I chose to listen to one song. This  was a song that I already heard (in concert) which was 100. After listening to the song, I put my phone back on the charger and went to bed. I barely could get to sleep, knowing that I had to catch up in the morning. My wife and I went to work listening to what we could. The hardest part was that we agreed to not listen to anything without the other. This made my day so long and hard to complete. But when the day was over, I rushed home with her and we plugged in our speakers.

I will be doing a reaction of each song, so I don’t want to talk about them in this post. I just want to give my opinion of the album in a whole, then give you my three favorite songs!

The album was really banging on the first quarter of the cd, then it turns into a slower album in the later part. The first part of the Cd was hype. He started the Cd off with the normal “Intro” This “Intro” seemed to be connected to the first album he ever released, “Mansion.” In “Mansion’s” title track, Nate talks about how he allowed fear to come into his mansion and find a room, now the fear wont leave. Now fast forward to this album, Nate seems to be dealing with this fear, again, but this time he is winning. He seemed to bury his fear for good, but lets see!

The later part of the album, Nate turns up the emotion as he talks about his present girlfriend (You’re special), saying that he could see him marrying her. He tells us about how supportive she is and how he loves that she sings his songs in concert. She is very supportive, which is all Nate wants. He also talks about his life in “My Life” where he talks about his father, it seems. “Let you down” is also a very touching song, where he talks about a parent figure that wasn’t there when he needed them, yet wants to be “cool” now.

 

Overall, I loved this album. The fact that he can be so passionate for the second straight album is amazing. I was caught off guard that he didn’t have a song for God, but he has always been Real, so maybe he just didn’t write a song that he felt was good enough for the album. The other things that caught me off guard was that he had so many slow songs about Ex-Girlfriends, that he didn’t have a title track, and that the album ended with an “Outro” which seemed to foreshadow the next album. WE will cover that in the review, though!! These simple changes show that he is a growing artist that will be exciting to watch in the next few years! I would give the album a solid 9/10!

The three songs that I absolutely loved were:

“Intro III”

“Outcast”

“My Life”

#REALMUSICTILTHEDAYWEDIE!

What do you expect?

Posted: September 14, 2017 in Uncategorized

Bro, there is nothing better than this time of the year. I find this time of the year to be the best. The weather is getting cooler, the leafs are beginning to change, Wal-mart is coming out with Halloween decorations, and my ideas come out of no where.

It isn’t even time for the effects to come out, it isn’t Halloween, but I have to say; I am ready! All I have been thinking about is doing a pull, making a degloved finger, doing things with barbed wire, and all the other crazy ideas that I have kept inside my brain. The biggest project that I will be taking a part of is this Halloween party at my house. I will be doing some peoples SFX for the party, so I know I will be keeping busy. But I want to talk more about some of the projects before that.

Let me clear something quickly, I don’t just do SXF make-up during the Halloween season. I like to do it all the time, but it seems that the ideas come more smoothly when Halloween season is among us. Last year something that I loved making were bruises, they are pretty easy to make and you can play with all different type of paints to create sicker bruises than seen before. The other thing I loved doing was barbed wire.. Let me say that both will be coming back, this time, I will be teaching you guys how to do each!!! YEAH! Teaching!!!

Not only will I be teaching you guys about barbed wire and bruises, but I will be giving you guys lessons on making scar wax and gelatin!! These two things will give you nearly everything you need in SFX make-up. Besides the making of material, I will be doing some effects that I didn’t get to last year. I remember doing a ripped open arm, so expect something more detailed with that. Then I did some slit wrist, burnt skin, and many other things that I will revisit this year.

I don’t claim to be a good SFX make-up artist, but I do have a lot of fun with it, so just expect a lot more effects to come your way, because I’m feeling it!!! Until then, I hope you stay safe and oh shit, behind you!!!!

I don’t know why I am writing this article. I thought I was done with this segment and thought it was fully buried, but I have something on my chest that has something to do with this topic, so I promise to bury this after this post. Tonight is the last post on “Letters to the Chapel” I hope you enjoy.

If you have followed this segment, you would know that I had a pretty bad fallout with the Church, one that ended with a decision that changed my life, forever. I was given an option to either stop dating Ariel or I could step down from the ministry, which was making it impossible for me to stay there. This was the last night that I was in that church, since then I have been to church a handful of times, if not less. I am/was a passionate Christian when I was huge into the religion, but what most don’t know is that I was dying inside.

I rejected to accept that I was running out of road as a Christian, mainly because I didn’t have all the answers. I didn’t know what I was needing to do, so I just allowed my fire to be dimmed, until eventually I didn’t have the fire at all. My wick was burnt, but no longer was on fire, I saw this as the end of my walk. What I know now is that God was wanting me to become a more mature and more quiet Christian, when I thought I was suppose to be the screaming, hardcore Christian. I held on to an old fire for so long that I forgot that there were other fires that could be felt, so when something new would come in my life I would reject it and try to find that old fire.

It only took a few months of my rejection before I started to feel calluses form on my heart. I don’t know how to explain it, other than a dark prison. I was locked into the same place, this is when I stopped feeling Christ. I think all of this is making sense, I surely hope it is!!!

I never wanted people to think I couldn’t feel God, so I started to fake the fire that I felt. I knew what to do so people couldn’t tell that I was struggling, because I didn’t want people to think I was a fake Christian, or know that I wasn’t perfect. That was the end of any passion that I had. I stopped caring about reading the bible, praying became a forced habit, and I wouldn’t talk to people about God. From a strangers eyes, I was just another guy.

If I am being honest, getting kicked out of Church was probably for the best. I don’t respect them for doing it, mainly because of the reasoning, but I needed it. Being released from that Church was the key to the cell that I was trapped in. It was the perfect fit and allowed me to leave my dark prison. But don’t think, because I was happy about being banned, that I don’t still hurt from the betrayal, because that is so far from the truth. I found that out recently when someone got a whole different type of treatment for doing something worse than what I did. He got someone pregnant, and they were okay with it. I had to see photos of my old mentor marry them, when he rejected me. I couldn’t help but fall apart inside when I saw it. I don’t understand how he could walk away from me so quickly, yet hold onto a man that did something worse than I did. It broke me.

I haven’t cried since the night I left that church. That was 5 years ago, 5 years since I have had a tear fall from my face, that is a long time. I haven’t wanted to read the bible since that night either. This one situation ruined my faith. Don’t think I haven’t tried to get it back, because I have, I just cant find the love that I use to have. If I am ever going to be like I use to, I need something big to happen to me, something I am very unsure of. I’m sorry to any that I make mad about this, but you have to understand the pain that I have been through, only then will you get why I am the way I am!!!

I do pray that one day I can find my way back to God. I might be on the road to Damascus, who knows. All I can do now is protect those who are close to me and keep walking the way that I am right now. This is my final entry in “Letters to the Chapel” until I find my way back to God. Thank you for taking the time to read this and have a good time!

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