I left….

Posted: September 1, 2016 in Uncategorized
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I don’t know what to say….
I am posting this blog from a train heading to another place. This land has gotten old and unlivable. I didn’t want to leave, but what else was I to do? This place has become so negative and full of hatred, so I decided that I didn’t need this. I hope that everything will be fine, which I’m sure it will be, so I can come back one day in order to live the rest of my life, but this wont be until things change. I need this change in my life…
Life is super difficult right now. I have never been this stressed and desensitized to the world, but lately that’s who I have become. I have become someone that I hate, someone that doesn’t care about anything. I don’t put my heart into anything, anymore. I have become a wall to those around me. This isn’t good because I have some pretty serious things coming up. I have a huge test at work, one that could really put us in a bad spot, I also have a few deadlines that are coming up, on top of that; I have to make sure my own are good, this being my wife and dog. I have so much on my plate, but I found the solution….
This is when I left, at night, and went to the train station. I had some cash from my check, enough to buy me a one-way ticket. I gladly gave up my money for a ticket out. I was told that I had to wait for the train, but that was okay, at least I was going to get out of this hell. I waited as the train came to a complete stop. The interior was slightly glum but it felt good to start over, knowing this was going to lead me to another paradise. I sat back and finally got to sleep a little.
When I woke up, it had been thirty minutes, and we weren’t even close. I pulled out my phone to see my wife called me. I gave her a call, mainly to tell her I left. When she answered she sounded scared. I quickly told her the truth and told her that I would be back soon, right after I found myself again. I heard sobbing through the line, knowing that she was crying, I tried to comfort her. She didn’t want to be comforted, she wanted me back! I explained why I couldn’t come back and told her that I will keep her posted. After minutes of debating, I simply hung up the phone and looked ahead. She didn’t try to call back and didn’t text me. I think I made her mad.
I do feel bad, but that doesn’t matter. I am at the end of the line and I know this is serious! I need to find myself before I try to put anyone else first. My future will be found on this trip, but I have to ask, will you guys be behind me? This train could get very lonely…

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