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Don’t jump into the water!

It is hard to stay positive when you know life is rough. It is hard to keep that smile on your face, when you are trying to hold back tears. It’s hard to laugh and hard to love when you are filled with fear and doubt. Others will tell you to keep your head up, to get over it and be happy again, but do they know what you go through? Do they live with you, pay your bills, write your budget for the month, or even know how much you have to pay for rent? The answer is no, most of the time, that is. But they might have a point.

If you are an average American, you might be struggling, right now. I know I am no longer living comfortably. It is rough, and I don’t know how long it may take to get out of the situation. The truth is, I made a huge mistake that I’m pay for, now. It sucks. I fight back anger, every day. I try to stay strong, because that is who I am supposed to be. I am Blake. I am the happy clown that puts a smile on everyone’s face. I can’t be upset, I can’t stress, I have to be strong. But when is it my time to be sad, depressed, angry and broken? If you’re an average American, I probably just hit you hard with that similarity, yes! We are alike. You aren’t the only one that is struggling with these feelings. You aren’t the only one that has trouble breathing when you think about all the things you can’t do. You aren’t alone. So what happens now? Where do we go after we realize that we are broken?

The answer is simple. We go back to the beginning. We get over the small things and make plans on how to fix the bigger issues. This sounds so simple, but it’s not. It will take everything you have, but, it will work out!

The first step is to GET UP! Life isn’t over just because you fell and feel like you can’t get back up. You have a boo-boo but it isn’t critical. Get up! That is the most important thing. Get up from the ground and fight back! Breathe and know that everything will be okay! It isn’t the end of the world, but it is the end of your fear! You will get through this with the love and support of your friends and family. If it wasn’t for the strong encouragement of my wife, Ariel, I wouldn’t be as strong as I am. Yes, you will still be hurting, stressed, and possibly will fall again! But with these people beside you, you will make it. I Promise. They will be your security blanket in the hard times. Never try to do this alone. EVER!

The second step is to make a plan. I would never go into a war without the best outline, ever, neither should you! Take a minute from your crazy life and write down goals, a budget, and solutions. What do you want in the next 5 years? Well, I want to be debt free. Okay! How? I’ll pay the minimums on my credit cards, I’ll sell what I don’t use (you know, that boat that you bought, even though you live in the city and don’t even know where the nearest river is?) , and I’ll stop going to McDonald’s  and I’ll use that dang cook book that my mom bought me! I will then put that money back so I can finally pay more on my credit card! Okay! What solutions will help you get your life back together? If I didn’t have debt, that would be a big relief. I’m not happy with my current job, so I’ll look for a new one, I am not happy with my weight, so I’ll workout 4 days a week. See, it isn’t that hard to make a plan. Most people don’t take time to make a plan, and that is why they usually never see results. They want everything to go back to normal, but they never change their way of living. How do you expect change, when you never put in the work? Getting your life together is 20% materials and 80% your will to be different.

The Third step is simple; Stop stressing the small stuff!

I learned a lesson a year ago, right around this time; this lesson was “Stop stressing the small things.” A guy told me that when I was in the line at a pretzel shop. Ariel and I were waiting in line for a bucket of yummy, Cinnamon pretzel nuggets. We were talking about the fact that Christmas was coming up and that we didn’t want to spend that much money. The guy interrupted and told us to not stress over the little things, because life is too short to lose sleep over things that won’t matter in a year. This hit me when I thought about it. How many times do we over stress about the smallest things. It might seem important, but when it’s over, you realize that the situation wasn’t that serious after all. You were able to solve the issue pretty quick, and shouldn’t have lost sleep over it. In this case, Ariel and I ended up having a great Christmas, even though we didn’t spend that much money. In other cases, we were able to find a hole in our budget and got back in the race, quickly. YES! There are certain cases that you won’t be able to fix it immediately, but with a solid plan, all things will be solved in due time. This is where your faith in your plan has to be strong. You won’t stick to the plan if you think it isn’t bulletproof, so you best believe it’s bulletproof. After you believe in yourself, then you might not be stress less, but you won’t feel like the whole world is on your shoulders, anymore.

The last thing is what I have always done, that is laugh, dangit! Why mope around when you can’t fix things? Why do we get depressed and let the darkness take over our rainbow? Being negative all the time is like jumping into a raging river. You know it will never end well, but yet you still jump, why? Stop jumping into the water, stop letting the pain get you down. When I get upset, I try to find a way to make a joke out of it, and it has worked. I know this isn’t the best advice, as some of you aren’t like me, I know, but just try it. Laughter is the best medicine to a broken heart. In my situation, I will make jokes because I know how stupid I was for doing what I did. Ariel and I make jokes all the time now when it comes to the situation. Laughter will change everything. When you laugh, it is like you are taking the sting and pain away from the antagonist, leaving them defenseless and weak. Learn how to keep a smile on your face, because no situation is big enough to take your smile away. Laugh, my peeps, laugh. It will help.

What I am saying is; stop letting depression win. Get up from the ground and live the best life that you can. Laugh when you are hurt, smile when you are broken, and learn to love. Find people that will pull you from the river and cover you with their safety. Learn to not stress over the small things and to make plans for anything that seems impossible, because God has your back. This isn’t a spiritual post, but these are the simple things I do to keep that beautiful smile on my face, at all times. I have been through the worse times, ever, but somehow, I have been able to find a way to stay positive. I want to give you four simple things you need to do anytime you’re down; Get up, Make a plan, Stop stressing the small things and for gosh sake, LAUGH! When you master those 4 things, you will be so much happier, and the small things will no longer have a hold on your heart! I LOVE YOU, GUYS! Thank you for the support and I hope to see you in the next post: How to get over him/her.

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Welcome back. Thank you for the love and support on the last post, and as I promised, I am back as scheduled. I broke the schedule and actually wrote this yesterday, because I need to spend all of today getting prepared for an awesome project with a local artist. Yes! You heard right, I am back to promoting local talent. This will be a huge project for me, so get ready to like that crap. IF you like anime, gaming or just love awesome people, then you will want to pay attention.

Today will be a post about our first official day of snow, in Illinois. I went to Facebook and asked everyone to tell me what they wanted me to write about. Sadly, there was only one person that commented, but nonetheless, we will cover that topic. I want these days to be led by you guys, so make sure you comment when the status gets posted. That will be the only chance for you to get what you really want. Anyways, let’s get to the freaking topic.

Friday night was a good night for anyone like me. If you like the peaceful blanket of ice on the ground, then you would fall into that category. If you like to roast chestnuts over an open fire, while listening to Frosty, then this was the night for you. If you like the beach, long and warm walks along the shore, well then; this night probably didn’t set well in your soul. What I’m saying is; IT FREAKING SNOWED! God shed some of his dandruff and covered 20% of the ground with it. Frosty lived!

It wasn’t that great, but it marks the first snow of this year, and I can’t be more excited. I love the cold, snow, and everything that comes with it. Well, minus that itchy feeling you get after coming inside from the coldness, but that isn’t what we are talking about. I have always enjoyed the cold, so to see the snow fall from the sky was refreshing. It didn’t last that long, but it still happened.

I saw on Facebook that if it snows in November then it will be a mild winter. Some ole wives tale confirms this, so it has to be true, so don’t be worried guys, the dumb drivers will be back to honking at you soon, and won’t be going 10 miles an hour in a 75. Nothing is more frustrating than a driver that is being over cautious. I understand wanting to be safe, but I wish they knew that they are putting others in danger by doing this. So if you are one of these idiots, hear me! I HATE YOU!!!! LEARN HOW TOM DRIVE. LOL I am just joking, I love you :3!

Other than that rant on drivers, know that this is my favorite season, and I won’t shut up until everyone agrees!!! I want to see your pictures! Send me pictures of your snow @ Gregbjenkins23@gmail.com and when it gets closer to Christmas, we will make a post with the beauty. Either way, I’m out!

Welcome back! It has been so dang long and I do apologize for that. It has been the roughest year of my young life, and that has caused me to not want to write. But nonetheless, we are back in action. I won’t be posting nearly as much as I use to, but know that you will be getting a blog 4 out of 7 days. This is solely because posting 7 days a week is just too draining and I don’t want to find myself hating this again. Not that I could ever hate you, guys. Wink, wink! Also, with the change of the schedule, I will also be giving this blog some direction. This will help you guys know what is going on at all times and will finally give this blog a name. For most of this blogs existence, I have posted whatever comes to mind, which can be hard to pull in outsiders, since people only read what they think will affect them. In this “Revival” of “Impromtdude” We will be leaning more towards encouragement. Meaning 2 of the 4 post will be uplifting messages to help you guys get through the day, then the other 2 days will be reviews, promotions, writing prompts, thoughts, lessons, or anything else I can think of. I really feel that will bring life back into this keyboard, and will give you guys encouragement to face your demons. I have to say that I am glad to be back and I hope you enjoy the upcoming projects, as I am excited to share my thoughts and talents with you guys. Thank you for reading!

Don’t let toxic people ruin your shine.

When I was going up, I lived with my mom. At 7 years old, you are looking to your parents for the right and wrongs. You are over being that toddler that is running around the house, and you aren’t quite the man that is taking girls out. You are right in the middle. These are the times that you really need a strong backbone to know what is wrong and right and you need that person to push you in the right direction. She wasn’t this, though. She taught me, at such a young age, that hate is good and that you must judge everyone on their actions. Most of her lessons were, of course, about hating my dad, as she taught me that he wasn’t around because he was a bad father, not because she had a restraining order on him. She also taught me that it was okay to steal, lie and cheat. This led me to lying to people, cheating in class, and stealing (to the point of being banned from a gas station at 8 years old!) This went on for many years. When I grew up, I ended up being like her in many ways. I would blame others when I didn’t get my way, I lied to girls to get what I wanted, and I got in trouble for stealing; all things that she taught me because she was a toxic person.

This was all said to tell you that you don’t need or want toxic people in your life. They will tear you down and only will use you for their pleasure. They don’t care about you or how you feel; they only want what they can get. If you stop giving it to them, then they will leave you and treat you like they treat everyone else. You will become nobody in their eyes, because they won’t be able to use you as a puppet.

Toxic people come in many forms; boyfriends, girlfriends, best friends, bosses, coworkers, and most importantly family. Anyone in your life can be toxic. Toxic people just want everyone to be as miserable as they are. Boyfriends will use words to cut down their girlfriends (and vice versa,) usually telling the girl that she is ugly, fat or stupid. This is usually in attempt to make her feel so low about her own self that she would never think about leaving him. Your coworkers can be toxic by the way they talk to you or about others. Getting that promotion is their only goal, and they will do anything to get it, even putting you through the ringer. They also take time and gossip about your other workers, mainly to make themselves look better, which can make the workplace dangerous and full or drama, which was their goal all along. Drama is soul food for these people. But one type of toxic person, one that we didn’t think should be on this list, is your family. Family is supposed to be there in thick and thin. They are supposed to support your feelings, your dreams and also should see your side of the story. They should understand that you aren’t always going to like someone or agree with everyone. They should show you the love that you always gave them. This isn’t always the case, though. Some families are full of drama seeking  hateful judgers that want everyone to hear them, but never want to listen. Such as my mom, they want everyone to see their side and only their side. They will do everything in their power to convince others that you are wrong and that they are right. Most families will break apart because of the toxicity feelings.

What should we do about toxic people? CUT THEM OFF. Don’t let your boyfriend talk to you like he does, remove yourself from conversations will negative people, and if you need to, cut your family off. You have a life to live, so don’t let others bring you down. Life is too stressful to allow others to fill you will negative thoughts and feelings, so cut them off. You will never change their mind; you will never do them justice. Every word that you speak will go in one ear and out the other, so stop wasting your breath. Get a knife and cut the ties, because you will be happier that way! I saw a big change when I cut my mom off. She wanted to blame my dad for my bad childhood and wanted to tell me that it was his fault, but I knew the truth. The truth was that she was just hateful and wanted to avoid being the blame, so she pushed it on someone else. I thought that I could pull her up and show her that no one was to blame fully, but I saw quickly that she was pulling me into negativity, and if I didn’t release her hand then I would become the same type of person. It won’t work! You put yourself at risk anytime you try to pull these people out of their toxicity! But it is so easy to pull you down.

I have seen so many toxic people in my life, but that is also why I don’t talk to that many people. I don’t dance with snakes and I don’t drink with fools. Being around toxic people is as dangerous as dancing in the middle of a freeway, you will eventually be flattened! Don’t let that happen, though! Get up, cut those people off, and live your most positive life. It will be hard to cut these people off, especially at the family level, but you need to do it.  Stop letting them ruin your most happy days, take them back already!

Thank you for all your support. This is my first time writing a blog in almost a year and dang did it feel so good. I miss this feeling. I will have something up soon to tell you guys what will be posted and when. I have a few big projects coming in the next few weeks that I will need your help on, ill post more details soon. Thank you for the support and I love you.

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What the hell, where am I? I think we have made a huge mistake. I don’t think I have anything to say. Yes you do! No I think they hate me, I know they think I left for good. How do I describe what has been going on. What if they lea…Shut up! They want to hear from you, they love you! Okay, but what do I talk about? remember that’s the reason that I left. I didn’t know what to say to them, I thought I was just saying the same thing every time. I don’t want to waste their…shut up and talk about life already!

Hi, guys. I wasn’t going to write today, but I have the time so why not. I just got done playing Friday the 13th, and OMG is it amazing! I have been playing a lot of the offline mode so I can play Jason more. I leveled up so I decided to stop playing for now, but I think I will be back on tonight. If you have a PlayStation, please drop your psn. LETS Connect!

Todays post is solely about what 2018 is going to be about. What am I going to focus on, what can you guys expect from me? I want to start by saying that 2017 wasn’t the best for Impromtdude, since I didn’t post in almost 8 months, which I feel crappy about, but understand that I had no motivation to write, and I felt like I was talking about the same thing. The big problem was that I posted daily. I forced myself to post daily, which I didn’t have the content for. If I had a long day, the last thing I was wanting to do was write, so I would do flashbacks, which was me copying from my past blogs and posting it. How original? Right! That also became hard to do, so I just gave up. I wanted to stop the website and let the domain fade until this whole blog fully died. But over the last couple weeks, I have been thinking about what I need to get back into and I thought of writing. I know the problem and I am ready to fix it. I will move on from this and get better. Don’t expect a daily blogger until I start feeling up to it, but for now, I am back!

I am no longer wanting to be a paid writer, this is just a hobby that I could eventually get paid to do, but for now, I just want it to be an outlet to talk to new people. I might post something that could change a life, or I could post something that is random, either way, this blog is now a hobby that I will take as serious as anything else. But as we talk about jobs, I guess I can tell you guys that I am looking for a new job. I am ready for a career change, I don’t know where I will go, but I am now looking for new doors to go through. I have learned so many things from my current job, but something just isn’t there, the passion that I use to have. I just don’t enjoy the job anymore. And if you know me, you know that I am either all in or all out, there is no in between for me, which is when I realized that I needed to take a step and remove the walls so I can be happy. I will talk more about this in the future.

I recently started doing a few new things. I am now collecting playing cards, and officially have over 30 packs. I signed up for a joy crate to get 2 new decks a month for only $7.99. I would love to show you guys the cards when they come in, and I probably will haha. I have cards so why not do something with them, which is why I am learning magic tricks and cardistry. I also play poker as much as I can. I never thought I would hate to not see poker on T.V. but damn do I hate not watching it every time its on.

Other than that, I also smoke cigars. My favorite brand is Acid and the best cigar I have had is an Acid Blondie. They are a high quality, cheap, cigar with a sweet wrap and a medium smoke, making it easy to smoke and enjoyable. Also doesn’t make a room stink so you can smoke them while playing poker!

Hmmm. I think that’s enough for today. I am making a schedule for all my hobbies, so I will post that soon!

You’re more.

Posted: November 21, 2017 in Uncategorized
Nothing in this world is worth your tears. Nothing will change the fact that you are awesome and deserve the best. You will change the world, only if you stop looking to the world for acceptance. IT will kill you, it will drag you to the pit of hell and leave you there if you let it. You are meant to do great things in life. You truly do have a purpose. Go out into the world, like the light that you are, and shine!!! Shine so bright that the darkness cant keep you depressed. You will shine so bright that the negative people cant stand to be negative anymore. You are awesome. You are meant to do great things, so go do them! Stop letting this world convince you that you are no good! You are golden!

 

WTF!!!! Tell me why,

Posted: October 7, 2017 in Uncategorized

I WATCHED A MAN ASSUALT A HOMELESS MAN!!!! while I was practicing. I happened to be walking the parking lot, collecting the golf balls I just hit, when I heard this man yelling. I got a little closer and realized that this man was screaming in his face, instead of yelling with this guy. I got a little closer to hear what the hell he was so mad about. He kept saying “Salvation army is that way you son of a bitch.” and other things, then I saw the homeless guy wipe his lip off as the other guy pushed him. When I saw him push him, I let angry get to me and yelled at him. “Leave the guy alone!!!” He continued to push him so I began to walk faster to the guy. I yelled a few things at him. That’s when the guy turned around and told me to mind my own fucking business! I got madder and told him to come over to me and face me like a man. He stopped yelling and went on with his life. The disappeared out of my sight, so I decided to stop fighting. But then as I got back to the road, the guy came back into the parking lot (about 50 yards away from me) and told me that it was my turn. I chuckled and kept walking. He then threatened to hurt me. I laughed and told him to get on with his life. He came closer and said that he would kill me. I turned around and started walking to him. He got on his bike and told me to mind my own business, that the guy stole $20 from him. I told him to come back, but he started to peddle quickly. Being a brave one, I started running after him, but he was gone in seconds.

 

My first thoughts were “Are you kidding me, why didn’t you just call the cops?” But then I started to think more, why would you assault a homeless man over $20. I didn’t know the situation, but I don’t think hitting someone is ever the answer, especially over money. Also, are you seriously so angry over a dub, when this man had nothing. He could have stole $20, but that might have been his first meal of the week, it could have helped him find shelter for one night. Stealing is never okay, but violence is worse! Then when you get called out, you turn around and try to fight me? Serious!!! Was I in the wrong???

NF is killing it!

Posted: October 7, 2017 in Uncategorized

, Today was the official release of “Perception,” which is NF’s (Nate Feuerstein) third studio album with Capitol. I have been geeking since I found out that he was releasing a new album! I think I have annoyed everyone that has been around me. I have literally been talking about this album everyday! I am a huge fan of NF and I cant wait to see what else he has up his sleeve. But for now, lets talk about the new album!

The album came out at 11:03 last night. I wanted to hear it so bad that I was going to stay up, but I had to work today, so I chose to listen to one song. This  was a song that I already heard (in concert) which was 100. After listening to the song, I put my phone back on the charger and went to bed. I barely could get to sleep, knowing that I had to catch up in the morning. My wife and I went to work listening to what we could. The hardest part was that we agreed to not listen to anything without the other. This made my day so long and hard to complete. But when the day was over, I rushed home with her and we plugged in our speakers.

I will be doing a reaction of each song, so I don’t want to talk about them in this post. I just want to give my opinion of the album in a whole, then give you my three favorite songs!

The album was really banging on the first quarter of the cd, then it turns into a slower album in the later part. The first part of the Cd was hype. He started the Cd off with the normal “Intro” This “Intro” seemed to be connected to the first album he ever released, “Mansion.” In “Mansion’s” title track, Nate talks about how he allowed fear to come into his mansion and find a room, now the fear wont leave. Now fast forward to this album, Nate seems to be dealing with this fear, again, but this time he is winning. He seemed to bury his fear for good, but lets see!

The later part of the album, Nate turns up the emotion as he talks about his present girlfriend (You’re special), saying that he could see him marrying her. He tells us about how supportive she is and how he loves that she sings his songs in concert. She is very supportive, which is all Nate wants. He also talks about his life in “My Life” where he talks about his father, it seems. “Let you down” is also a very touching song, where he talks about a parent figure that wasn’t there when he needed them, yet wants to be “cool” now.

 

Overall, I loved this album. The fact that he can be so passionate for the second straight album is amazing. I was caught off guard that he didn’t have a song for God, but he has always been Real, so maybe he just didn’t write a song that he felt was good enough for the album. The other things that caught me off guard was that he had so many slow songs about Ex-Girlfriends, that he didn’t have a title track, and that the album ended with an “Outro” which seemed to foreshadow the next album. WE will cover that in the review, though!! These simple changes show that he is a growing artist that will be exciting to watch in the next few years! I would give the album a solid 9/10!

The three songs that I absolutely loved were:

“Intro III”

“Outcast”

“My Life”

#REALMUSICTILTHEDAYWEDIE!

What do you expect?

Posted: September 14, 2017 in Uncategorized

Bro, there is nothing better than this time of the year. I find this time of the year to be the best. The weather is getting cooler, the leafs are beginning to change, Wal-mart is coming out with Halloween decorations, and my ideas come out of no where.

It isn’t even time for the effects to come out, it isn’t Halloween, but I have to say; I am ready! All I have been thinking about is doing a pull, making a degloved finger, doing things with barbed wire, and all the other crazy ideas that I have kept inside my brain. The biggest project that I will be taking a part of is this Halloween party at my house. I will be doing some peoples SFX for the party, so I know I will be keeping busy. But I want to talk more about some of the projects before that.

Let me clear something quickly, I don’t just do SXF make-up during the Halloween season. I like to do it all the time, but it seems that the ideas come more smoothly when Halloween season is among us. Last year something that I loved making were bruises, they are pretty easy to make and you can play with all different type of paints to create sicker bruises than seen before. The other thing I loved doing was barbed wire.. Let me say that both will be coming back, this time, I will be teaching you guys how to do each!!! YEAH! Teaching!!!

Not only will I be teaching you guys about barbed wire and bruises, but I will be giving you guys lessons on making scar wax and gelatin!! These two things will give you nearly everything you need in SFX make-up. Besides the making of material, I will be doing some effects that I didn’t get to last year. I remember doing a ripped open arm, so expect something more detailed with that. Then I did some slit wrist, burnt skin, and many other things that I will revisit this year.

I don’t claim to be a good SFX make-up artist, but I do have a lot of fun with it, so just expect a lot more effects to come your way, because I’m feeling it!!! Until then, I hope you stay safe and oh shit, behind you!!!!

I don’t know why I am writing this article. I thought I was done with this segment and thought it was fully buried, but I have something on my chest that has something to do with this topic, so I promise to bury this after this post. Tonight is the last post on “Letters to the Chapel” I hope you enjoy.

If you have followed this segment, you would know that I had a pretty bad fallout with the Church, one that ended with a decision that changed my life, forever. I was given an option to either stop dating Ariel or I could step down from the ministry, which was making it impossible for me to stay there. This was the last night that I was in that church, since then I have been to church a handful of times, if not less. I am/was a passionate Christian when I was huge into the religion, but what most don’t know is that I was dying inside.

I rejected to accept that I was running out of road as a Christian, mainly because I didn’t have all the answers. I didn’t know what I was needing to do, so I just allowed my fire to be dimmed, until eventually I didn’t have the fire at all. My wick was burnt, but no longer was on fire, I saw this as the end of my walk. What I know now is that God was wanting me to become a more mature and more quiet Christian, when I thought I was suppose to be the screaming, hardcore Christian. I held on to an old fire for so long that I forgot that there were other fires that could be felt, so when something new would come in my life I would reject it and try to find that old fire.

It only took a few months of my rejection before I started to feel calluses form on my heart. I don’t know how to explain it, other than a dark prison. I was locked into the same place, this is when I stopped feeling Christ. I think all of this is making sense, I surely hope it is!!!

I never wanted people to think I couldn’t feel God, so I started to fake the fire that I felt. I knew what to do so people couldn’t tell that I was struggling, because I didn’t want people to think I was a fake Christian, or know that I wasn’t perfect. That was the end of any passion that I had. I stopped caring about reading the bible, praying became a forced habit, and I wouldn’t talk to people about God. From a strangers eyes, I was just another guy.

If I am being honest, getting kicked out of Church was probably for the best. I don’t respect them for doing it, mainly because of the reasoning, but I needed it. Being released from that Church was the key to the cell that I was trapped in. It was the perfect fit and allowed me to leave my dark prison. But don’t think, because I was happy about being banned, that I don’t still hurt from the betrayal, because that is so far from the truth. I found that out recently when someone got a whole different type of treatment for doing something worse than what I did. He got someone pregnant, and they were okay with it. I had to see photos of my old mentor marry them, when he rejected me. I couldn’t help but fall apart inside when I saw it. I don’t understand how he could walk away from me so quickly, yet hold onto a man that did something worse than I did. It broke me.

I haven’t cried since the night I left that church. That was 5 years ago, 5 years since I have had a tear fall from my face, that is a long time. I haven’t wanted to read the bible since that night either. This one situation ruined my faith. Don’t think I haven’t tried to get it back, because I have, I just cant find the love that I use to have. If I am ever going to be like I use to, I need something big to happen to me, something I am very unsure of. I’m sorry to any that I make mad about this, but you have to understand the pain that I have been through, only then will you get why I am the way I am!!!

I do pray that one day I can find my way back to God. I might be on the road to Damascus, who knows. All I can do now is protect those who are close to me and keep walking the way that I am right now. This is my final entry in “Letters to the Chapel” until I find my way back to God. Thank you for taking the time to read this and have a good time!

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The world is in trouble.

Posted: September 11, 2017 in Uncategorized

With everything that is going on in the world,  you have to wonder if the world is getting ready to end. We have fires in the west and parts of the north, floods in the south, hurricanes approaching the edges of our country and we also have Korea at our doorstep.

I was just on Facebook and saw that this Hurricane looks like the three hurricanes in “Day after tomorrow.” If this is any indication of what is going to happen, we are in huge trouble. I might just need to go to a library and burn all of those books to stay warm, maybe even make-out with Emmy Rossum, while she almost dies from infection. But don’t worry, the homeless man and the dog will be okay.

The world seems like it is hurting from something. I think it is time for something to be done, so that is why I am making this application, it will be called “World mate” and will help the Earth meet someone that will love her more than the moon does. The Earth and the moon go back, they were high solar sweethearts and have never been with anyone else. Then, a couple weeks ago, they got into a fight because the moon forgot to pay the electric bill, causing a short power outage for most of the world, they called it a solar eclipse. After the Eclipse, the Earth told the moon to stay away from her.

Since their fight we have seen nothing but natural disasters. This started with Hurricane Harvey and now its Irma. There are fires all over the west and I guess we can blame the Eclipse on Koreas crazy-ass leader. Either way, the moon is too blame for the natural disasters *gives the moon a glare* “Real solid work, moon. Way to go.”

In all seriousness, though, I do feel for those whom are having to leave their homes and those who have lost everything. I pray for Florida and Texas, I pray that the support comes and can get the states back to 100%. I also pray that the tolls can stay down and everyone can stay safe. I don’t want to see any die, I pray that no one is harmed in this and that we can find solutions to help them as much as we can. We also pray for wisdom over President Trump, we pray that he plays this Korea situation right and doesn’t start something that we can’t handle. All together, we just pray for the safety of America and the world as we move forward.